Spence Cafe
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Tattooed Mom
Sugar Mom’s
The World Cafe
"I met a sensual musician at a picnic in June, and we had sex in a field: great, passionate, mind-blowing sex. We're still having the same passionate sex today - but it's love. "
"Music affected my life in the largest way. Without the gift of music I would be hollow and empty, I would have no substance. I first heard music when I was in 1st grade and started playing violin. Music became the voice of my soul, it became a way to cry and a way to shout for joy. Without music in my life my soul would be rendered mute, without voice. –M.W."
"I.D. - I came here all Summer long + was welcomed at the door. Last week I got harassed for having a cheap paper I.D. + the door men made me feel like shit. Yesterday I got a plastic ID + five minutes ago I was welcomed back in the bar."
"I joined a music tour! Absolutely love music and traveling so having a job that combines both is a God send. I brought Marijuana out on tour to fully corrupt her. So far, it seems to have worked. In other news, I puked from boozing for the first time in years. The best part was that it was directly in front of an Amish Choir at Penn Station. Rock on. - J.K."
"Internet surprise - Life is cool. Life is short. Thank God for the internet. Without you there would be no greatness. The day we call pull out the tweezers. Can you find your favorite website? Yes it's boobies.com. Without this it would be dropping $14.50 on a six month subscription to Playboy mag. That just pays for my high speed connection. Well it's been a good 20 secs. Thanks Bill Gates or Thomas Edison or somebody..."
"The thing that has had the biggest impact on my life was meeting my new husband Bob. We met when we were working together at a new.com called Half.com. We both worked on the customer service department on the 3-12am shift. There were only about 7 or 10 people working that shift at the time. I had just married a man from
"We come to escape, but, what we really come to do is connect... We are all human, and despite all the individual things that separate us, all we really want to do is celebrate life and join together with others and find some sense of commonality. -S"
"It always has been
and will be till time lose breath
love is a sport to a man
but to a woman is life or death. -M. T. M."
"Living in the
"Do you know what its like? I mean. The tormoil associated with a life unrelated to anyone else? you should all be saying "fuck yeah" cause we all have a life of our own, but how many of us are really happy w/it? How many of you, reading this, think, damn, its time I made a change. Live life for yourself. And once you've begun.. Come back and tell me how to do it!"
"Nothing imagined is as beautiful as is real
No high feels as good as what feels right
and no song sounds as sweet as a soul."
"I met a transvestite at a Women's gay bar. He talked about his heels and his 501 jeans. After a while I got sick of his stories about relationships - 'No shit', is what I thought...'hmm' is what I said. Then I saw my glass was empty and he went to play pool. Later on I met a girl who was a flirt and pushover all in one. Unfortunately, I knew her from my professional life - sex was out... only nasty rumors. I went home by 3A - full to the brim, but capable of navigating public transport. I never forgot the 'sweet n' sour sauce' red heels of the transvestite. Why? Never met anyone quite like him."
"A life change? A real one? Try New York City at the age of 18, tripping drunk in the lower East Side or reading library books in Washington Square, a gorgeous urban infection that grows + grows + grows until it's five years later and you live alone in Harlem you know all the subway lines you teach in the South Bronx + you write like a mad woman and where you come from is a zip code, an area code, an Amtrak train, a Chinatown bus, it is a balmy day in West Chester with the girl you knew since you were 8, and your cousin. Like always, it just goes on and on. What would life have been like without that skip - jump North? That follow your drumming heart to Nueve York mi grapa? i couldn't tell you. i couldn't even guess." -C.
“In seventh grade, I discovered Metal… or maybe I should say, Metal found me (it was almost inevitable). And I’m talking real Metal, not that pansy, hair – band crap I’d been led to believe was Heavy Metal until that point. The exact order of events is hazy to me now, but the effect I remember clear as day – one complete and utter awe, as if for the first time I was hearing music AS IT SHOULD BE. It was either Maiden, or Metallica, or Slayer, but when I first heard their kind of music, it was unlike anything else I’d ever heard before. It spoke of possibilities, it reawakened a kind of curiosity I hadn’t felt in many years. It was as if I had discovered buried treasure, a rare gem in my own backyard. There was an honesty, an intensity to the music that I suddenly realized, had been sorely missing from EVERYTHING I had heard before that moment. I’d had but a taste, yet I was already hooked. I scrounged allowances together in an attempt to purchase as much of this music as possible… For the same purpose gave my first serious thoughts to getting a paying job. I reconceived my entire approach to drum–playing, I had just begun the previous year. In short, the trajectory of my life shifted – and ever since, I’ve been on that road, trying in my own life to achieve the same kind of purity revealed to me that day when I first heard Metal.”
"I think the one thing that has affected me was this nonrecipricol love affair between me + this boy, fun. It went on for 5 years + we only touched sexually a few times. I've compared all my lovers to him, + the majority of guys I've been w/ resembled him in some fashion whether it be only sexually, emotionally or mentally"
"The thing that impacted my life in a major way was the romance with a yonger man I met in internet dating. Prior to meeting him I thought it impossible to love commonality with someone ten years younger than me. He is actually wiser, and more mature than me in so many ways - emotionally, sexually, & spiritually and then his ex wife wanted him back so I had to let go & hope he would come back to me. As of this writing I am still waiting & hoping." – J. L.
"Plain and simple. I took all the drugs (prescription and otherwise) I could find in my apartment with a manhattan chaser. I turned on Basquiat with the volume off and waited for the pain to subside. I don't remember what happened until I woke up with a tube down my throat and a hospital gown and my parents crying in the corner. My cell phone was full of messages of people I though didn't care, saying they did. So what was my life changing event? A switch being flipped in my self conscious. My abandonment from the quest towards death and deciding I might be ok living."
"The thing that impacted my life the most would be breast cancer. It was a brick wall that taught me about real life. Honesty, truth and love. All of us get the chance to live life to the fullest experience. It's about who we really are not who others want us to be. We are all connected and worthy of love. Life is great enjoy!" – D.
"8/17/05 - So this guy approaches me in a bar to write about my own life's impacts. Where should I start? I am 28 and I have been transformed by each day. Each relationship, each experience by people I meet and each travel I have made. I feel that perception & expectations have changed my life. Is it the disappointment by people that have hurt me or the expectations that I have for myself & others that have fallen short. Let's not beat around the bush this American mentality, hedonisst approach to relationships does not work for me. Why does averyone want ratification now? Is everyone still finding themselves? How long does it take prior to figure out their beliefs, wants and passions? Everone I meet is incapable of giving and only capable of taking. Wher do I fit in? A whole reason just waiting to share my life with someone. Is anyone going to want what I have to often or are probably seeking from others what can they do for me? Unselfish love does it exist? A whole person trying to find another. People try to wear to many masks covering who they really are. Why can't people just expose themselves? Just get to it who are you - what do you want?"
“One bar experience that had a huge impact on me was one that involved a very upset customer who I was serving. He came in with some buddies in the early afternoon – typical construction worker types – and proceeded trying to get smashed. One fellow in particular seemed pretty worked up, and was whispering to his friends about something, and naturally, I turned a deaf ear. But soon his friends began laughing hysterically, and his face dropped further. They told me that there was something their friend had to tell me. I had no idea what it could be, until he said he thought he was going to break up with his girl later. Of course I asked why, and his friends nearly dropped to the floor in hysteria. Turns out he was really sad and depressed because his girlfriend said she needed to show him something. Being the good boyfriend, he asked what it was, and she proceeded to put his hands down her pants, directly onto some horrendous hemhorroid that sprouted overnight. The man was traumatized beyond rectification, and he was driven to sit at my bar, get smashed, and finally cry. This was quite possibly the most sad, strange, and ultimately life altering experience I have ever witnessed in a bar. – K.S. 8/13/05”
“Moving to
“In a bar
I danced
For the first time
In public
Yep, me
Ms. Self Conscious
Always inhibited
Self conscious
Concerned
I felt
Free
Amazing
Maybe even sexy
I still get that feeling
Sometimes
Well, most of the time
Dancing
In a bar
-E. M. 8/13/05”
“Music. When I was a kid, & used to ride in the car with my step-father, we listened to what is popularly known today as ‘classic rock’. To him it was the only music. And we all know that music is life, right? So we rode , & we listened, & then after I learned enough, we sang it:
‘In the sunshine of your love…’
‘All along the watchtower…’
‘You don’t have to be a weatherman to know which way the wind blows…’
‘Me & Bobby McGee…’
Then, once I knew the words, we would sit & wait for a song to come on –
One, two, three notes & then he turns the radio off. ‘name it?’ ‘the Byrds’
‘Yep.’ And off we would go. Eight miles High, not even needing the music - but he would turn it back up. Music.”
“I have done many things in my life. I would have to say the one most vivid, that stands out most to me is my experiences in
“Traveling! I’m always looking for something new. Landscape that I have never seen. Music that I have never heard. People who I have never met. Life is traveling. I was born in small island on
“A friend of mine picked up 2 girls on the board walk. 1 of them was talking to a guy and they all came back to our shore house. The guy ended up being a cop. We underage drank w/ him all night and at like 3 a.m. he brought us back a free 30 pack of sliders from white house… From a cop. That shit was better than having kids. – S.”
“The birth of my first child. Had a major impact on my life. How couldn’t have. The introduction to a new planet. The brightness of his eyes looking wandering pondering. What’s going on? Where am I? What are these things around me?
I connected deeply within my soul. It brought me back to my inner child.
If we all saw what kids saw the world would be a better place. You heard?!
-S. 8/9/05”
“Dear Memoirs, It must have been 6 years ago now. I felt wonderful at the time. It was the best decision I could make, boy was I wrong. -R. G. P.S. In the end, I should have kept the dick.”
“I won’t lie, this is a difficult subject to pindown, many things have impacted me in many ways, directly and indirectly, that I am sure of. These things include the following; learning to walk, to talk, to speak, as well as my discovery of the ‘finer things in life’, certain drugs, certain drinks, and unfortunately nicotine, and awareness of self in various stages, toddler to teenager, and the open door law policy of hitting 18, 21 (and sooner or later 40 for my mid-life crisis, can’t wait). If there was people to impact me, in a cliché way, I’d say, everyone I have ever met. I like the belief that everyone you meet has some sort of “path intake”, in other words an impact. From a stranger holding a door open, to a lover riding me right, everyone you meet should be able to learn/live directly out of you, and vice that versa. To narrow it down Mr. Farley my fourth grade teacher, even at that age he taught me to look at life outside of cookie cutter standard box tombstone thinking. Both sides of the coin kind of bullshit, and it has always worked to my advantage. To specify a thing, it would have to be music, music my savior, my muse, my band and lament. There’s too much to say how much music impacts me, that should tell you in a very non exciting way how much it draws me in, digests me, and dictates my mood and sway. Without it I would not know how to sustain, for lack of a better term, I could not live without it. For a place, I wish I was comfortable enough to say, wherever I am at the time, but all that comes to mind right now, and it may sound cheesy, but the only physical stretch of land to impact me was the Vietnam memorial in D.C., though I was not born then and only know second hand stories, and second person losses, I was so moved to break down in front of so many names. The somber tone alone of the black marble and various trinkets flowers, laid there before it. So many questions, how did this happen, at what cost, war what is it good for and all that shit. Anywho, I’ve gone on long enough, hope someone can take something from all this however Mr. Pevar puts it together, good luck and thanks for the opportunity to share, very rare indeed. Thanks – S. M.”
“A horse once kicked me square in the groin. Impact. Absolute. –M.”
“So, about 10 months ago, my mom passed away in a nursing home that’s right down the street from here. Not that it’s easy to see at any age, but she wasn’t in the demographic that the others at the home were. She was 45. And I was 21. Being 21 at this college means trashed nights and blurry classes. Hazy, but crazy memories, and hours at bars and with friends. Not nights in the ER and hours spent trying to calm a mother who knew she was dying. I lived w/ her when she collapsed, just north of campus. I gained a roommate to pay for rend, worked two jobs, and somehow aced my classes. I also ‘somehow’ stayed alive. I ended up becoming a machine of sorts – but, eventually, it was in the best way imaginable. I didn’t take shit from anyone, I spoke up, I talked back. Priorities become undoubtedly clear in a state like that. I was free to be my true self because I had to be; it was the mechanical process of denying anything but what I deserved that ended up saving me in the end. Was it easy? Saying ‘not in the least’, doesn’t even describe it. It is still an ‘easy yes, no’ determination of what I want/will tolerate? Not at all. It’s only been 10 months. I watched her die for a year & a half. It’s only just begun. For that I’m thankful. I get to learn that much more while I’m here. If this is what I’m getting at 22, and I’ve made it this far, so be it. The more I learn this time, hopefully the next time I’ll get it just a bit easier. Because, really you only really should get it easier next time if you grow in this one. Hopefully I will grow. She changed my life, and I’ll be smart enough to make it to her level one day. Until then… -A. S. W.”
“Something that has impacted my life was the death of my close friend Crystal. She was 15 years old, it was Thursday night & she was out with her boyfriend & friends for a joyride but she was also high. In an abandoned parking lot they let her drive. She ran into a pole and out of 6 people my best friend Crystal is the only one that died that night. I’d known
“Here is my night sitting
at the bar, my mind just
visible over the chatter shouting
inside the music playing.
She’s singing blues and
Protecting her space.
Let’s all be more real
And raw like this tune, here
Inside American blues fumbling
Against the smoke & television
Screen. -L. G.”
“When I was 18 I went to
“A true impact in my life… I turn 24 in 3 weeks and there are so many people, places, and things that I’ve come across that have moved me in one way or another. I must say that a key moment in my life is when I had enough courage to get onto my bike @ 10 years old & just ride… having been scared for years, I never had enough courage to overcome my fear. Yet one day I woke up & decided to start riding. I rode up & down the street yelling for everyone to watch & to get the joy I was feeling out of my mouth. The best part of the day was when my brother got in front of me, and being so inexperienced I didn’t know what to do or how to stop, so I ran him over. From there I knew no one or thing could stop me from trying & accomplishing something I wanted to do! –J. 7-21-05”
“There is a hill in central
“Ever since I can remember I have had a fetish with footwear. I think that shoes make the man. You can wear a t-shirt and jeans and a nice pair of shoes will set the entire outfit off. I have spent thousands of dollars on shoes that I only wear once or twice then I store in the closet just to bring out years later when knowone else has them anymore. The in vention of EBAY has made my addiction even worse. Logging on every night to see what’s new and what I can find from
“Last year a buddy & myself flew to
“Last time I was here I was masquerading as a cuben. This time, I’m taking in as myself. Incognito is not necessary when you generally go as unnoticed as I do. But the thing that has had the most major impact on my life has not changed. It is still traveling. I love to go new places and meet new people. Every time, I learn something about myself and about humanity. As of late, I have learned that traveling a mile or less can be as enlightening as traveling 1000’s of miles. It took a long journey and an understanding of people to see this. But now I know that if you look at everday as an adventure or day spent traveling, possibilities are endless. –D. D. ‘if
“When I saw my friend’s girlfriend go into seizures from an ecstacy overdose, it changed my view on the world of drugs forever. Her frail tiny body violently jerked on the hotel bed for the first time since I had embarked on a wild ride of sex, drugs & alcohol, I felt completely out of control – and I didn’t like it. I felt like a little girl, and I wanted my mom. But my mom wasn’t coming, and this girl was dying right in front of me. –V.”
“Moving to a new town is not always easy, in fact sometimes it is downright lonely and you recognize how much you miss your family + friends. How do you meet new people? How do you get your new circle of friends? Move into a complex that is next to your friendly neighborhood bar. In
“Sexuality is part of all Human Existence. Yet, we as human beings are so scared of not only our sexual nature but our curiosity and mysticism about the subject itself. Life is full of wonder and experience and at the core of that is our sexuality. To be human is to be sexual in any and all ways. –Dr. D. L. L., Sex therapist”
“LA JOYA IS SETTLED (IF THAT IS POSSIBLE 10 YRS AFTER CIVIL WAR) BETWEEN WHAT REMAINS OF THE JUNGLE, AN ACTIVE VOLCANO AND THE ONLY SOURCE OF WATER A RIVER BARELY ACCESSABLE BY A FOOTPATH. A FEW DOZEN ACRES OF MAIZE MAKE UP THE FOOD SUPPLY AND CASH CROP FOR 200 OR SO VILLAGERS. THE PEOPLE LIVE IN SHACKS MADE OF ALUMINUM AND FALLEN TREES. ANEMIC COWS AND DOGS
“In 1990 I heard Elvis Costello’s “Veronica” on the radio for the first time. Years later, I heard “Deep Dark Truthful Mirror” on an MTV ‘unplugged’ CD compilation. Few years after that, in my Punk/Ska, bad-ass high school years, I picked up a specials Album on saw that none other than E.C. himself produced. Ever since then I’ve been hooked. I’ve played music, all instruments, all genres, and modeled it after E.C. I know it’s not cool to have heros in an Indie/Punk Rock/hardcore scene... but Elvis Costello has impacted my life more than anyone ever could. –Bernie
“Failure, Everbody has failed at something in their lifetime. Its all part of the learning process in life. Their have been times in my life where I have failed and instead of looking at all the negatives, I try to see the positives. For example, I experienced a failed relationship and I focused on anything positive I could. I tried to realize that instead of mourning and being sad all the time, I realized that maybe being single was better off, for me or even that maybe this girl wasn’t the one and now I might be able to meet her in the future. –K.”
"The music makes me and makes me think of the girl I love. She don't know it yet, but when I show her she will know the feeling. 7/15/05"
"I sit here, pen in hand, trying to pinpoint what major thing has impacted my life, but there have been so many. To choose out of the myriad of experiences, all precious and crucial in their own right... the ugly, the beautiful, the cynically in-between... is as hard as choosing the big dick, the small -but hard working, and the median. They may all feel good, but in different ways. But we're at Rex's. Live music is the medium of sound. So I will choose music. The big dick (rap) taught me how to dance, the small dick (the likes of Billy Joel and Elton John) taught me how to croon without the element of self-consciousness, and the inbetween (disco) taught me how to be alive yet loved, wild yet tameable, delicious yet tasteable. And I taste good."
"Moving into the
"American children are being raised in a bubble... Ask me what impacts my life? Watching others in this country who are oblivious to the priveledged society they have been raised in impacts me every day. In this country, children are raised to believe that they are "entitled" to a certain quality of living. They do not comprehend that the the things they take for granted, (sodas, electricity, water, telephones, etc.) other people have never even experienced. Americans get angry when the power goes off for no reason. But there are people who live their entire lives and never have electricity. Children here believe that they are gauranteed certain things, and watching these naive children live this way makes me grateful for every day that I wake up in such a priveledged society. I wish everyone could truly appreciate everything they have."
"Iron maiden had a major impact on my life dan. If it weren't for the monster clad record covers i'd probably be paying child support to a woman who hated me. iron maiden taught me to look outside of the world that existed around me. taught me to think critically - question things and make decisions for myself. long live heavy metal. –E."
"Christmas Eve 7 years ago, as 26 guests arrived @ my home for a holiday party - my house caught fire. 4 firetrucks later & a lot of surprised guests - in a moment I realized truly that everyone is on loan to us. Grateful to be alive, having lost all my worldly possesions - I walked away with the clothes on my back - covered in soot, I began a different path - one which I walk not alone but with an ever present reminder that we are souls in a human condition. I practice gratitude on a daily basis - for my family, friends, life itself. It is not possessions but kindred spirits, honestly, truth is unconditional love that are important. Everyone has something."
"One time I was waiting for an airplane and it was delayed by 3 hours because of storms. So I played soccer in the terminal with 4 other kids. My team lost 7.4. I scored 2 goals. From that time on I decided I should try to go pro in soccer. –S."
"I borrowed an ashtray once. The man slid it down the bar and the ashes flew into the air disrupting the other patrons. It was an abomination to them to have cigarette ash blown in their faces. I sweetly smiled grabbed it and lit my cig. –C. J. F."
"I guess Death is popular but... Any near death experience will make you look at something a little closer. One time I was held under water by a wave, and thought I was never comin up. It was a slow thought about a moment, trust me, it just made me realize that it could happen when you least expect it. Live it up!"
"On discovering Touch & Go Records when I was a young lad of 22 or 23 I had a defining moment. Life was simple and easy. I had just transferred from the
"Just when you think you're getting to understand life, what it is and what it offers, along come "the kids". An incredible addition to the dimension of life. A whole nother plane of feeling, loving and yes worrying.... But I'd experience all over again in a heart beat... even though six years ago three little boys exited my body and entered my heart. Oh yes, they're triplets. -I. N."
"When my sister Rachael was born - I've met tons of great people, have so many acquaintances and a few handfuls of meaningful friends - but noone makes me laugh - until I pee - cry or go crazy like me sister. –V. C."
"Since the time I was 7 I have listened to music. Sometimes I write my own lyrics but don't show them to anyone. Real poetic shit right!"
"Down by Shilo Creek
We were gone 'bout two days
Came up from behind us
and we lost our bags
with a power seldom seen
and even rarer known
but felt hard by the
crescent moon, that spoke
only apparition"
"The thing that has impacted me the most was being a caregiver for my sick parents... I would it all over again! The hard part of it all is realizing that my siblings were willing to leave me stranded with all of the responsibilities, and not realize that they dropped their responsibilities... it has been very sad!!! I will move on with the positive energy that my mother gave me, with a smile that she energized!!! -C.D.H"
"I think the most impactful thing in my life was when I found Jesus. I found him in a small jar at the foot of a dumpster by the 7-11 on cottman ave. ‘Help me, you idiot,’ the tiny imprisoned savior said. ‘God helps those who help themselves,’ I retorted, and went inside to get a coke slurpee. -J."
"In 1977 a police officer came to my Junior High School and presented to the 8th graders a program designed to keep kids off drugs. I had never seen any drugs before. He had a 2’ x 3’ board with marijuana pipes arranged in a fanned fashion around a pot leaf that was in the center of the board. I would estimate that it was made via 1972 or so, because of the quality brass pipes I saw. The year was winding down and school soon was out for Summer… My mother loved to garage sale. So one day she stopped and had a particularly long conversation with our neighbor through the woods. I was tired and wanted to go home. I told my mother I would walk through the woods and se her later… I come upon 3 marijuana plants growing in the nook of some tree branches and grabbed a branch off one recognizing the leaf from Officer Friendly’s pipe board. I showed it to my neighbor who immediately called his friend and the three of us set off to see the harvest. A solumn oath (that I now break) was made never to divulge the theft of the green bootie… We don’t need no…No more….education…."
"It’s all about my mother she was the one that was able to comfort me at the worst time in my life. It was Sept 10, 2001and me and my girl decide to abort our child and we cryied all night until we fell asleep. Then we woke up and it was the worst day in American History. So I called my Mom and she said just come home and I will take care off you. I went home and she said "what do you need, anything just tell me". I said I need to get my nut off. So she blew me and it was the best blow job I ever had."
"In growing up on a dairy farm, it’s obvious I spent a lot of time around animals. And as I reflect on what’s most impacted my life, I’d have to say cows. But not just cows in general… one cow, little Bubschki. She was the runt and was quickly rejected by the other cows and by my father. I watched as, early one morning, he took the unnamed baby cow and walked her around to the back of the barn. She was mooing happily, thinking life was grand, apparently not noticing the shotgun cradled in my father’s arms. I decided to do something and ran out of the farmhouse shouting for my father to stop. He did and agreed to give the cow to me. I named her Bubschki (that’s another story) and brought her to the farmhouse. She lived in my room for a while until she crashed through the wall into my sister’s room. My mom shouted something about a Fido and announced that the cow was to move outside. So I built Bubschki her own little barn adjacent to the big one. As the years passed and I got older. I began spending more and more time with Bubschki in her little house. I’ll be honest, I was falling in love with her. My human relations suffered and I was rejected by society. Then, one night when I was 16, I awoke inside the little barn to find Bubschki gone. I jumped up and went searching for her. To my shock and horror, I discovered that some local boys had gone on a late night crime spree and had passed through our field. They’d gone cow-tipping. My Bubschki was dead… and my soul with her. I shall never forget my little cow, Bubschki. May she rest in peace."
”A moment that stands out in my mind is standing at the Grand Canyon, having just survived a horrifically bumpy plane ride from
"The one event which has made me who I am is an easy thing to choose. When I was in first grade at Plymouth Elementary, this fight broke out on the playground. I can’t remember the names of the two kids who started it but I doubt they’d make it to print anyway. But these two kids started hitting each other and eventually one of them landed a hit firmly on the other one’s nose. He wailed and covered his face with his hands. When he took his hands away there was just a bloody mess. He stared at his hands for a moment, curled one up, and with the other he slammed the other kid right back in the nose and that kid began bleeding as well. But the kid who bled first didn’t seem interested. He had uncurled his hand and just kept staring at it. Then he held it out and they both just looked at it. Me and a few of my friends thought this was mighty odd so we headed over. In this kids hand was a small rod about the size of a lighter flint. We looked at the second kid and he held out his hands and he also had a metal rod. Or something metallic at least. So of course my friends and I started punching each other in the nose as hard as we could. Soon we were all covered in blood and looking intently at each others rods. But I didn’t have one. People kept hitting me and I kept checking, but nothing. We looked around on the ground, maybe it had slipped? But a teacher took notice finally, screamed, and came over to break us up and drag us all off to the nurse. After that they all acted differently around me. They treated me like a leper or something. People still treat me like that a lot. I think it’s unfair. For all I know, my rods still in there. Maybe I never had one. Maybe they were right to treat me like an outcast. Who knows? -G. O.,
"Cotton, oh cotton. You soften each step from room to room. Your fibers slide between my toes, easing step from gravity-ridden step. You cover my bottom from my coarse jeans and the souls of my feet from shoes who need Dr. Scholls. You cover my body from the shame of nudity, but wear as softly as nothing at all. You are the fabric of all our lives. Cotton, oh cotton… are you edible? -L. 7/7/05 "
"The best + worst thing that ever happened to me was getting kicked out of the religious university I was attending b/c my best friend, who was the same sex as me, fell in-love w/me. When I told her I was straight she went to university officials + told them we were lesbians. They freaked + my straight – A semester went down the drain. My parents reacted by kicking me out of the house and telling me to spend Christmas alone. But that’s when I took a crappy job at CVS + met the man who later became my husband! He chased all the suicidal loneliness away + taught me how to stand on my own 2 feet. I’m still very religious but now I’m not the brain-washed lamb I was."
"July 1st, 2005, One steamy day. I was walking through the streets of
"The day I buried my father I relized that no matter how many people you have in your life, you end up with only yourself. And, it is yourself only that you have to answer to. -F. M."
"I thought cancer was just a dancer and her body was the stage. –J. H."
"At Jake’s Bar a few nights ago some random 65 yr old lady who was extremely lit decided to start chatter with me and my buddy. Little did we know that if we responded she wouldn’t leave us the fuck alone, and she didn’t. For the first time in my life I had to pretend as if I was gay, so some obnoxious filth would leave me alone. On the norm I would say, "18-80 deaf, deaf, dumb, blind or stupid, I’ll carry her – if she can’t walk –but for the first I had to go against all principles. Solid way to spend my fist week in town, ah?"
"I arrived on a redeye. I took my last E pill on the ride from the airport. At the flight gate he said "I love it when you look like a punk slut". We were on the 4th story of his house when he fell asleep mid-kiss. I slip away from his dead embrace onto the balcony. What was the point? Why keep doing any of it? I look down at my body & see a whore. Tired of being stared at, jerked off to, raped, and sick of empty love. I climb over the rail. The balcony door slides open "What are you doing?" I reply with a cold stare + a fake smile. I jump. I feel bliss as I rush toward concrete. I never splatter. I feel a rude awakening as stillness jolts me when his hand catches my arm. Thank you Matt. That was the last time I tried it. –S. P."
"The thing that impacted my life most would have to be when I lived in
Now I realize I don’t have to be in Europe or
"There have been a lot of things that have impacted my life. It’s so hard to just choose one but if I had to choose, I’d write about how my mom gave me pictures of my biological father, or as I like to call him, "sperm donor". That’s all he was. He left my mother and I with nothing, not even a fucking dime. He fucked another woman, got her pregnant and left us. My mother was devastated and I hate him for hurting her. But what I hate the most is that when I saw the pictures, I realized I looked like him and I hate how I look even more. I never liked how I look and now I think I know why. I don’t hate him for what he did to me, but I hate him for hurting my mom. She had been through so much and he hurt her and had another woman pregnant. My mom showed me a picture because she said I deserved to know. Now I do and I want to cry but I won’t. If I saw him I’d spit in his face. I have a dad. We may not be blood related but sometimes there are stronger things than blood. I wouldn’t trade my dad for anyone else. That’s my impact. I love my family and friends. S. C."
"E. R. IMPACTS ON LIFE
Kicking twin brother out of the womb.
Christmas – 9 years old – my first pony.
Ant enchanted kingdom.
Pilgrimage to Bob Marley’s birthplace in 9 Mile,
Liberal Democrat in
Student of "developing world" – 3 years.
Who knows? Can’t wait."
"This pen, had a major impact. The fact that someone cared what I thought. The fact that I could make a difference. Maybe it's this pen."
"When I was much younger in elementary school I had a best friend named Jenny. When we got to 7th grade, I was dumb & decided I didn't want to be friends anymore & started to make fun of her. I destroyed her emotioanlly. I moved away. Several years later another long time friend called me. Asked if I remembered her! I had to think about it, it had been so long. Yes! I remember. I was an ass to her. I should call her & apologize! I was such a bad person! I was about to ask for her # when I found out she died 2 months prior. I would say that it's a pretty big impact & a long feeling of guilt never will I betray someone."
"Last year I meet someone who I didn't know was going to have the impact on my life that he has had since. His name is Tim. We met last Summer. After a few months of knowing him we had planed a roadtrip together. It started on the coast of
We had an amazing day down in (?)
"People ask why music is being cut from public schools of
"My Dad impacted my life. It wasn't that he was great or bad but that he died when I was 19. That may not seem young to you but I'm 38 and it seems an age ago. It made me think that maybe soon I'd be dead to. (I may be!) so if I didn't have long left, ... what would I do with my life?? I reckon it's not about the length of your life, but the quality. Was the world better or worse as a result of your brief life?? I had a couple of people say tonight and I recon the world was a better place as a result of their times...."
"Only a week from today a baby was born. This baby is only 1/4 me yet he feels just like one. He is my nephew. Colin Gray. Seeing this new life so close to mine encourage my own life and the choices I make from now on. Cause ya never know when life will fall right into your lap."
"I'm Darkhappy. I had a kidney transplant. But Im sexy."
"ONE THING I IDENTIFY WITH IS CLIMBING. I'M AN OUTDOORSMAN....A MOUNTAINEER IF YOU WILL. IF YOU KNOW THIS ABOUT ME, YOU MIGHT FIND THIS FUNNY. LAST SUMMER SOME FRIENDS AND I TOOK SOME TIME FOR A ROADTRIP TO DO SOME CLIMBING IN
“The ocean is the source. All is right. Go back to the source within. All is right. Go back. Go back. Go back.... Go back to your source. All will be alright."
"One Thing? Oxygen. Everything else can be improvised.
-B. P. June 3, 2005"
"I've been in bars, and I've seen people get nasty, when they'd otherwise not be! Booze does cause people to do what they'd not do normally. Therefore, the thing that's changed my life is to be a happy (Happy is underlined twice) drunk.
-A. P. 6/3/05"
"Bars are not about liquor
They are a medium to allow you interaction with your friends.
-P."
"The thing that impacted me the most was when I was committed to a mental institution at the age of 16... greatest time of my life" (you should see Tom's crazy handwriting... just kidding...ha ha ha... it's just a little bit drunken...)-T. M."
"IF YOU EVER CARED TO HEAR GOD LAUGH.... TELL HIM/HER WHAT YOUR PLANS ARE. KEEP LOVING BECAUSE IT'S THE BEST FEELING YOU WILL KNOW AND ONE DAY THAT SOMEONE HOPEFULLY, MIGHT UNDERSTAND WHAT LOVE IS. IF YOU ARE LOOKING TO EXPERIENCE LIFE DON'T FORGET THE ONE YOU IN!! Love can hurt more than the thought of Death. -R. E. M"
"Here's what I've learned...
My padre was primarily a SURFER, in his heart of hearts, but was a banker by trade. He always dreamed of living in the
"6/9/05 - MAJOR IMPACTS @ 58 YRS. OLD!
-FAMILY -CHILDREN
-RELIGION -GRANDCHILDREN
-EDUCATION -SPORTS
-CAREER -FRIENDS
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DON'T MEAN TO PROVIDE LAUNDRY LIST, BUT THAT'S WHY LIFE IS. EACH ONE OF THE ABOVE TOPICS COULD HAVE PAGES UPON PAGES WRITTEN, BUT TIME IN A BAR DOESN'T PERMIT ONE TO WAX ELOQUENTLY. BEST OF LUCK ON YOUR PROJECT. GOD BLESS
"A man can know himself.
A man can know his surroundings.
A man can know of unknowable.
-M. G. 2005"
"The thing that lights a fire under me to succeed in life is my father. He has struggled his whole life to give my brother & I what we need - but he was never really able to give us everything. At 22 I just graduated from
-A. C."
"About three weeks ago, I got so drunk that I fell in my driveway & knocked out my front tooth! But before that unfortunate dental disaster, it had been a great night. I had been drinking w/my friend Michael, speeding down 202 at speeds we shouldn't have been, his car a red slash against the night sky. It was raining and gray but we only hit green lights. green smears on the asphalt. We drank ridiculously that night. telepathicly. shot in my hand before I even ordered one. I was wearing my pink tank top and the sequins were falling off. but we sparkled that night on our own. Vodka shots - clear, crystalline, pure. We danced and lived our motto, "It's our time -we're young." It's those moments I always find myself chasing -those carefree, youthful, blood pumping in the veins moments. And the next thing I remember is asphalt, blood threading red over my palm. even as I insisted I was fine. And I am fine. even though I'm 23, still living at home, unsure of where I'm going, living for the feeling of Red Bull and Vodka -alcoholic lull vs caffeine, fighting it out in my veins. "I don't fear storms, because I'm learning to steer my ship" –L. A.
"an influential memory of mine of would be the time when I was five years old and my father had come in work and passed out on the couch. You see my father was a heavy alchoholic and drug abuser, well before long he started haveing ceasers in his sleep. Well I watched him have a massive seacere and he had bit his toungue off while having a ceasere. Well after he came out of his seasere he blamed me for not taking his belt off and putting in his mouth so he wouldn't bit his toung off. after taking a harsh beating right then their I decided I never wanted to be like my father. I wanted to be the best father I could if I ever was to be. -I. K."
"I'M WORKING ON A NEW MOVIE. ITS A GLADIATOR, MANS BEST FRIEND THING CALLED AIR CALLIGULA, IT'S LIKE AIRBUD, BUT THE DOG THROWS A JAVELIN" (unsigned)
"PLAYING MUSIC WHLE TRIPPING. HANDS DOWN, CRAZIEST THING POSSIBLY I'VE SEEN MY SOUND WAVES, I HAVE LEFT MY BODY, AND THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN ME AND THE OTHER PLAYERS AND I. DISSOLVING REALITY AND THE SEPERATION BETWEEN THE UNIVERSE AND MYSELF... IT WAS ALL ONE, IN AN ESTATIC WAVEY, HAZEY, BEAUTIFUL SONG. SO...GO OUT THERE AND TAKE SOME DRUGS (unsigned)"
"6/13/05
"I liked boys. I always have. However, the other day I had a life changing experience. It was a hot + sweaty day. I was with two friends: one a girl -name not needed, and the other a boy -name not needed, we decided we were so hot that we wanted to go swimming in the near by stream. On the river bank stood a tree, attached was a rope. Being the crazy up for anything 21 year olds we are we decide what the hell who needs bathing suits. Stripped down to the nude and jumped in. This was the moment me and my girl friend's life changed. We couldn't stay away from each other accidental (?) kept occuring. Eventually it just happened we got caught up into the hottest most passionate make out session. After a good five mins in our own world we realized our guy friend was jelous and feeling left out, so we let him in on the action. This was our life changing moment and not to mention the begining of a beautiful relationship. -K + M, Lovers for life"
"1999 - Charleston, SC
had to hitchhike to my next festival, got a ride w/an old truckdriver - the motherfuckers going 75 mph in an overloaded Mack truck (18 wheels!!!) he's so interested in what i'm saying - he asks me to grab the wheeel -so i do- then he jumps to the back-leaves me to- crash or drive the fucking thing! So i take the wheel - and ask what the fuck??? -he says - i thought you wanted to live!
-L."
"Some times I go to church drunk. I think some of the congregation members notice too. however I always go to church high. I'm pretty sure nobdy notices, and if they do, they appreciate my enthusiastic singing more than accusing me of recrational drug-use. After a very spiritual Saturday night of binge drinking, it is easier to go to church if you drink + smoke weed beforhand. Be sure to sing good! C. M. B."
"February 28, 2000
Choice changes your life. Every day I try to validate mine - but that validation will never come. I'll never know if I made the right one- But it's changed my life forever and brought me where I am. Feb 27th I had a child, the next day she was gone. And my life will never be the same. -B.D."
"Waiting for inspiration to greet me at the crossroads of my dreams and my direction, I mused for a moment on the nature of the creative faerie, fickle and transient unless bliss precedes and follows. And washing up, like so many iridescent jellyfish. My pearls of words and music converge and shine as if tomorrow no longer held meaning. I began to move forward, and the perpetual motion of Fate met me halfway... From then on, I followed my intense, instinctive happiness and have been content ever since. -Just this Girl"
"Me and my friends were out at the bars in
"I was dating this guy and his parents were away for the weekend. I went over to his house, we hung out, & threw back some beers. This guy I was dating was a total stoner surfer dude. I could never understand what he was saying, I would just nod my head & say yeah, he was really hot so I didn't care. So, I was hanging out w/his brothers & his boys, and "the guy" I was dating disappeared. About 10 minutes later, he came up to me grabbed my hand & led me upstairs. All of a sudden we're in his parents bathroom, candles are lit & a bath had been drawn. Next thing I know, we're fucking in the tub. I was sitting on this ledge & there was this damn fern tree behind my head. So, me & this guy are really going at it, fucking like crazy, and the whole time these damn branches from this tree are in my face. I felt like the bride from 'sixteen candles' trying to brush her veil out of her face. It was such a pain in the ass. Eventually we finished & went to bed. So, my learning experience & that BIG IMPACT on my life is...never have sex near trees, plants or bushes b/c they just get in the way, make things awkward & kill the mood... but it was still good to a certain point. –M."
"So my learning experience is never be satisfyed with where you are. There is always a better place and people will appreciate your wanting to escape. (unsigned)"
"I woke up at 4:13 AM, walked out my front door neglecting to put on clothes. In my yard I began digging. By the time I was done I had fashioned a roughly conical hole 4 ft 7 in deep and 2 ft 6 in in diameter. I crawled in, tucking my knees against my chest in an attempt to look inward. Gradually the darkness enveloped me and I began to see through my surroundings, seeing my hand and arms as the bone and tissue they really were, seeing the dirt, roots, and sod as their constituent atoms, electrons circiling nucleii in an endless race around a sphere that could have been the giant orb we call earth I was sitting in. I was able to reach downward and inward to peer down with a bird's eye view at this microscopically enormous world. As I concentrated I could see oceans and landmasses clashing and sturggling, fire and ice destroying and creating in endless cycles. My view turned to the green color of chlorophyl as life sprouted and spread, engulfing my view with shapes and colors oddly familiar. From the algea and plankton sprouted trilobites, crustaceans, fishes, amphibeans, reptiles, mammels, primates. For the last tenth of a second I saw all of human civilization pass by in a flash untill nothing was left but gray dust. From my unique godseye vantage point, I briefly understood not the true question or meaning, but the innert motives of life. As a human mule, I understood we were neither the first or last to exist on this planet, our uniqueness stood in the fact that we are the first one's here to discover love. Now that we have braved the struggles of nature to retrieve the gift of love, what as a human race are we supposed to do with it?
-W. N. R."
"When I was seven or maybe six, whatever. My "cool" next door neighbor gave me my 1st skateboard. I didn't know + he sure didn't know how that 1st little mini freestyle deck w/no tail, no nose, tiny trucks + redish pink worn down wheels would impact the rest of my life. I was hooked on skateboarding like a junky is hooked on dope. I had to have it, couldn't live w/out it. I needed it in my system on a daily basis. Now almost 18 years later I've gone through a stack of skateboard decks waist high and somewhere I still have that tiny freestyle deck + thoughs little red wheels somewhere in a box in a bastement. The point is that skateboarding has had a positive impact on my life since a very young age + still does stronger than ever, + always will as long as I can stand on a board + give one little push.
-L. D. P."
"I TOOK A CRAP THAT WAS LIKE 20 INCHES LONG... THAT MEANT A LOT TO ME, IT WAS LIKE, YOU KNOW, NO SEPARATION. IT WAS PART OF ME, BUT BROWN, AND WHOLE..... IT WAS FUCKING SO REAL, BEAUTIFUL, YET KIND OF SMELLY. THEN IT SNAPPED OFF AND WENT DOWN THE TUBE NEVER TO BE SEEN AGAIN, WHAT A PUSSY."
"Something that changed my life...
-well most recently I met a guy here a Spence Cafe and I brought him home and he materbated in my bed. Who does that? He thinks he's so cool. But more importantly my father passed away my senior year in high school... I am now a graduate of
"9-11-01 has been the most major impact on my life. This was a very tragic day for our country, but it was a life lesson for me. I am a firefighter and I was a firefighter when this event occurred. Unfortunately this event demonstrated that our country was no longer invincible. This inspired me to take my volunteer activities to the next level. I now work for Congressional Fire Services Institute, an organization which is a non-partison policy making institute charged with educating members of congress on fire saftey issues. I was also inspired to go out on my own and lobby for funding for our nations first responders. God Bless
"The biggest impact on my life has been joining my sorority. I never imagined I could be so close to 56 girls. I have made friendships that will last a lifetime. Some people have negetive pre-conceptions of sororities that are completely false. My sisters are the most genoune, caring, and beautiful people I know. They are the most important people in my life. (unsigned)"
"I had a one night stand with a married man. The doozy of it is that I have to work with him every day. I experienced bad Karma right away. $600 later I am still healing from the evening. Lesson: DON'T DRINK & FLIRT! (unsigned)"
"One Sunday at church, where I had just started to go after an (?) 10 or so years there was a guest speaker and something he was saying just went right home to my heart. I couldn't progress in my spiritual life until I abandoned my anger and resentment. I had to FORGIVE. For my own good. Like lots of girls I was perpetually pissed at my fucked up dad but this was just holding me back from being an open and pure and loving spirit. So after a week or so I did it. I wrote it down in a list to let him know just incase he wondered if like most girls I was pissed at my imperfect dad and I let go of the ugliness and I was set free. And I think, no I know he was set free too. That was more significant than the news that came 3 weeks later that he had inoperable lung cancer. I am eternally thankful that I learned my lesson before it became a regret I'd have to live with for the rest of my life. God is good. Live, Love, Forgive – C."
"Out on a date. Rainy night - cold. Although feeling cheery. Go out w/ a guy who lent his car to a Mercedes Dealer for a "test" He drives a diesel VW. Mercedes wants to produce a diesel - his excuse. Two trashy thin blondes walk into the bar we are having drinks at. He walks up, leaving me at the table, to hit on them. Started talking to the HUMBLE guys next to me, and made a rreally great friend. (unsigned)"
"Well, about one week ago... I went to this CRAZY hippy/redneck festival which took place in the mysterious Pine Barrons of NJ... There, we made friends with a guy named Wavy Davy...AKA...The JERSEY DEVIL... He inspired me to live in a trailor, have fun, take home-made acid and not give a fuck about this psuedo-perfect society we call the United States of America...Long live Wavy Davy and his alternate reality, which for some reason seems more real then this world's actual reality... Much love to ya Davy – B."
"5/28/05 Sorry, I'm not writing about the topic. Driving into town tonight reminded me of the last time I was here. It was Joe's sportsmans Lounge then, and frequented by the likes of George Thorogood. Years ago, believe me and I'm feeling to old at 40 something, to be here but I got talked into it so I could hear the band. I also remember when the laundromat around the corner was the Corner Bar and Jitters was a hippie hang out! Turks Head. The Right to Life Office was a store called Mother Earth and I bought my first pair of hip-huggers (with much trepidation on my mother's part). Life's a trip. -M "
"Redemption 5/30/05. My best friend Birdie has had the biggest effect on my life. We met one cold, stormy night in the dead of summer. It was 1998. And yet, when I met her I had the odd feeling that we'd met before. It was like we were soulmates. She, with her dark curls and emrald eyes seemed to radiate light. But I was more taken aback with the way she said "Henry". To some people Henry seemed like a lame, broken down horse. But to Birdie, Henry was a work of art.
And now, as I sit next to Birdie and ponder our life as best friends, I'm reminded by the fact that she's getting married in 2 months...actually 5 weeks. Suddenly our lives are going to drastically change. She'll be married and I'll be living in
"Me and Jen are the best people ever & Pearl man woooo! We're at the bar for my 21st birthday & I'm very horny & wearing a condom hat!!! Who wants to use it w/me? -L. & J."
"Dear fellow bar goers- So many people focus on the responsibilities of life, such as doing good in school and being the best they can at their job. People focus on that so much that they loose touch of who they are and things that really matter in life. The important things in life is frieds ad family- without those things, nothing else matters. In my opinion, a truly succesful person loved their friends, their family, and themselves first, and does their "job" (whatever it may be) to better their surroundings. Above all, do what your heart tells you first, and don't worry about waht the "popular" desicion may be. Your heart never lies. -B.
West
"I would like to breed humans and sell them to Nike for a lot of money. For example if you took Shaq and Lisa Leslea and breeded them it would turn into the best basketball player. Only if i could sell them to Nike, cause Nike would nurish them and train them into being a great ball player. But that is just fer fun."
-(unsigned)
"5/21/05 I was suffering from Major writer's block about 7 years ago. then I heard "Ana's Song" by Silverchair, had a good cry, and found I could write again. It impacted me in a huge way, cuz if it hadn't happened, I never would have written again. And then I wouldn't have written this. And the page would have been blank here." -(unsigned)
"5/21/05. I thought it would be cool to take this girl I was dating to a concert because she is a musician. Unfortunately the concert we ended up going to was Tantric. Ifelt like an ass because they suck. What made the night worth it was the fact that she tole me she was in love with me. I'm still with her today. She's the best thing that has happened to me. Thank you Tantric! Haha. " -(unsigned)
"5/21/05. Not being positive about which had the greatest impact on my life, I would have to say discovering that there were alternative healing opportunities such as reiki and shiatsu. Realising you have the opportunity to heal others as well as yourself is a life changing moment. Especially when you never imagined you could. -M.G."
"Upon my travels to the north one place has found a deep impact on my young life. Algonquin Provintial Park is in the Ontario provience and incudes 76,000 square km witch is filled with hundreds of lakes, protected animals including moose, timberwolves, lake trout, and (?). My grandfather introduced this region to me at an early age. I highly recomed this land to anyone who is trying to find themselves, or seeking true adventure. -A.B.R"
"My mind is as blank as this page of paper..... –C."
"Next week I am going to
"6/1/05. I'm thinking how much I love to be 21! Finally after all these years I'm finally able to enjoy what everyone else has been doing! There are so many options of things to do each night of the week that I never knew before I became 21, now I get to pay twice as much to be drunk as I did in high school, aren't I lucky?" -(unsigned)
"I might get published? Oh REALLY?! Well it's about fucking time. I finally got my first rejection letter last week and I was so happy. I told everyone I knew. Why so happy to be rejected, you ask? Well, after sending query after query, submission after submission into the black hole of the publishing world, I was just psyched to hear that someone even acknowledged my (albeit unskilled, unemployable) existance. And now, after running into the hundredth high school classmate, I get told the best thing that ever happened to any of them was not going to college, cause now they not only well paid employees, but sought - after positive job candidates. So, in conclusion, perhaps college really is a terrible idea, because I (along with my degree holding friends) have this strange idea that I'm supposed to do something I like with my weekdays (instead of just spending my week nights at fake Irish pubs and beijng satisfied with it.) -L.C.N."
"What had a major impact in my life? Well, my ex-boyfriend cheated on me about 15 times w/probably 7 different people. So, i learned not to trust dickheads and to stop being so damn naive. I learned that i can be alone and still survive on my own w/out a dickhead of a boyfriend. -M."
"Learning the meaning of deception at 13. After 1 year of pain believing my dear daddy was soon to die from lung cancer. Only to finally find out it was a lie. Good excuse to stay out at the bars & cheat on my mommy. Funny that he spent nights crying that he wouldn't see his little girl get married. He didn't. Not because he died... but because he lied. L.I.V."
"In the seventh grade, on a family vacation to the beach, over the unlikely medium of pop radio, I first encountered the blues. It was through the imperfect conduit of Tracy Chapman's "Gimme One Reason", but it was the blues nonethless. All week long I would sit by the boombox radio, pushing the manual station tuner wheel back and forth, listening for the sweet music. I loved it. Specifically, at one point - I remember I was cruising out of a parking lot in the family minivan as the song was playing, I told my parents of my new found love. "Welp, I think our boy likes the blues, Ma." said my dear old dad to mom. "I think you're right, Pa" I denied it vehemently, of course, but the damage was done. (unsigned)"
"6/6/05. Got wasted Saturday. Was escorted to my friends by 4 strangers, 2 chicks, 2 guys from Baxter's in Dub C. My friend informs me the next a.m. and I happen to watch the news that p.m. to see a girl on vacation in Aruba w/120 some friends and she disappeared the last day after she left 2/ 2 guys (obivously strangers since she was from the states), it's a week later and they're is a manhunt for her body. I have been blessed by the grace of God to not be in her position after the stunt I pulled Saturday. An eye opener! I'm almost, no I am scared straight, don't get drunk and stupid, people are more than happy to take advantage. Take care. J. N. S."
"After attending nursing school, I worked private care in a young mans home. He was unfortunate though to azuire a disease called muscular distrophy. He was wheelchari bound since the age of 19. He's now 27. He has taken a misfortune and turned it positive. When I sometimes complain about small things I just think back to this man and realize, wow, Jackie, you have things made. Lots of people take small things for granted such as walking and hopefully through-out my life, I will always be humble and above all, grateful for what I do have. J. M. S."
"One of the biggest things that has impacted my life was being involved in a near fatal car accident I lost 2 of my friends and was devestated. I never thought that I would be able to overcome this obsticle, but time heals all wounds. As time went by I was able to overcome my sadness and guilt. This has made me a stronger person and I now know that I can handle anything that comes my way-not a day goes by that I don't wish that I could change the outcome. Everything happens for a reason I now appreciate my life so much more and try to live life to the fullest. T. W."
"Dan, Being brought up in a catholic house, along with over 13 years of catholic schooling (K-12th grade) I was naturally, what I call now "Brain washed" to believe and live out a catholic ideal life. Though those years I blindly accepted many of the catholic church's teachings, until I got into the real world. Being slightly embittered by all of that, I did what every person enevitably does, question our humanity and "the question of a higher power"-----The event that gave me faith in a God (not a "labeled" God) was a near death experience by my Grand-Mom. Nearing death, dying of lung cancer, weakened to bed and small movements, she sprang her arms up-said she saw a "light" and was seeing old relatives (dead). Then said God gave her 3 days to live. Three days later she died. It still reminds me of a higher power. –J."
"BMX, bmx is what made a huge impact on my life. Ican't really put it into words on how much its made me, changeed me as a person but it did. From it came progression, pain *magic*, some of the most memorable and life lasting times in my life. I love it, forever its me, been me, will be me, for a long time, or at least till I cant anymore. Anyways back to the BASS. Oh and Big Brother, Big Sister, who ever you were, thank you! I'll never forget you. You made a huge impact on me and I thank you for that. –N. M."
”Dear Memoirs, I was a 20 year old adolescent that possessed the hormones of a 13 year old boy. Living in a
"My life with an Israeli... From an american woman's perspective
hard-working, over-working, money-driven, family, sincere, so very different, attempting to break cultural boundaries, love, tears, miscommunication "lost in translation", determined, enamored, beautiful, new, eye-opening, future together, judeism, christianity, clashing, new rules, commited, un-broken, different directions, dark skin, light skin, soul, unity, alone. Love is not always enough.
-(unsigned)"
“Ok, I walk into a bar and meet this guy who asks me to write a page or so about whatever I think or however I feel while here at the bar. So I start thinking. What should I write about. What possibilities exist outside a bar that don’t exist anywhere else? Lets begin this evaluation by figuring out why people go to bars shall we? Ok, number one. Alcohol. The main reason people go to bars is to drink alcohol. Massive fucking amounts of alcohol. This is the sole reason people don’t hang out often in groups where alcohol isn’t involved. For some reason the proportionality of alcohol increases when the amount of people in a group increases. Maybe this is some sort of escapism. Not totally sure but this is a problem I think we all have but can’t admit. For another reason right now the dude singing Bohemian Rhapsody by Queen makes me want to puke. He is absolutely awful. Back to my point. Okay, so anyway society or people or some sort of strange magic makes it so its fun when we all get together and act like fools. Not sure why alcohol does this. This dude singing right now sucks so bad. Now the bar is screaming and head banging. Escapism. Where are they right now. Why doesn’t alcohol do this. Put the same people in the same situation without the booze and this will not happen. Why. Why do we need this elixer to loosen up? Whey can’t we do this regularly? Does alcohol provide the excuse for us to do anything and then just wake up the next day and reconcile our actions by just saying… "oh, I was drunk." Why do we need to drink? Why do we gravitate towards less conciousness as the night grows older. Why do we somehow socially de-evolve to where we just go back towards our main instinctual actions and desires, specifically sex, and absolutely obnoxious behavior? Why can’t we do this soberly? How are we improving ourselves? How are we challenging ourselves? We’re not. We sit and drink like fools as the rest of the world slowly fades away. Last call is over. Lights fade up. Bouncers are going to start kicking us out soon. Wish I had more time to write, but that would require effort, and why waste efforts when I can probably get the bartender to give me one more beer if I hurry.” -J. M.
”Tonight I have had the opportunity to reconnect with a very special friend with whom I spend many fond years and adventures, in my childhood. We have not seen each other in many hears and through one of life’s strange twist of fates, have come together to recap, recap, and catch up on all that has happened in the time that has passed. Although much in our lives has changed, much of remained in the sense of the fondness, history and affection that truly counts. Realizing this gives me the strength and optimism to move forward in life knowing I maintain a connection to the past and those that have contributed to who and what I am today. These are the things that truly matter. -(unsigned)”
”Thelma?
Yes. Louise. – what?
This is great. Yes. This is great. We are over 20 years older than anyone here and we are the only ones dancing. Why is that?
Because we are asses. We know we should dance – others are just watching. The night will be over and they haven’t danced.
What dance are you dancing Louise?
It doesn’t matter. Over hills, high fences or a sunny day – new + old friends – just dance when the music plays.
Louise –does that mean we don’t have to do the cliff thing? Should we keep dancing?
Always. Always. -(unsigned)”
”Boredom drove me away from my home. Yes, pure boredom impacted my life so much so that I had to get away from it, far, far away. So I ran; I packed up my jeep with my life’s belongings and ran south. I ran to the Keys – I thought how great it would be to party 24/7 in
I met a guy in college. We liked each other, hung out + had a good time. Then he called me one night + told my roommate that I was hot + looked like a Thundercat. Who says you’re hot + Thundercat in the same sentence. What an idiot. If that wasn’t enough of an insult he said that it was the male Thundercat that I reminded him of… not the female. What does that say about him? Anyway, long story short… I liked him + he called me a cartoon animal. He sucks. -(unsigned)”
”Every day at least one person asks me if I know how short I am? Like living in this body day after day doesn’t remind me of being 5 feet tall. But the sole reason I got shafted on the hieght is that my twin brother stole my milk from me everyday. He finished his bottle and then crawled his chubby little ass across then floor and drunk mine. He is the reason I am so short and that I hate milk today Damn Brubby!!! -(unsigned)”
”I was sitting in the bar with Quinny she was nakes it was nice. To much people to much noice. I love to be next to a nake girl but the noise get to me I can’t see her. The noise is too much the noise inspires me to write and to dance with her naked. Ohh laha –J. P.”
”The one thing that had a major impact on me – would have to be a friend of mine named Carl. We have known each other since Kindergarden. He had different views on life + especially music. He opened up new doors to my way of thinking + writing music + introduced me to music genres I wasn’t familiar with. Music has always been the main "connection" between us. We still are friends to this day. Music at different points in time almost – well – I should say – DID always cause us to fight + tear us apart. But always brought us back – to talk to one another throughout the years. He has now gotten out – on his own with some friends of his + is playing out for the first time in his life. He’s happy. I don’t do music that much any more except for my own entertainment.
-N.”
”Every minute in a person’s life has the opportunity to make an impact. It’s realizing the moment that truly makes the impact. I am mainly impacted by people, one in particular though. One moment w/one person. It was a summer evening on the cusp of dusk. I can + believe that a sensible person like myself is vulnerable to a summer’s eve at dusk but stranger events have happened. That night I found all the missing pieces to a poor man’s jig saw puzzle. It was raw, unforgiving, and hard to take but made me a softer person for it. The person that was with me that night has grown to be a perfect person in my eyes. On the road that evening my life took a turn… I have never looked back. -(signed illegibly)
The major impact on my life; acid, XTC, Xanex, weed, loratabs, vicodin, oxycotin, Crown Royal, Hieniken, Miller Lite, Bud, Bud lite, 40's, Blunts, & bitches! Sex!! -G. P.”
”Psalms 19... The Heavens "declare" the work of the Lord. The laws of the Lord are sweeter than honey from the comb. -B. S.”
”My sister's divorce had a major impact on my life. It was the first time I had more than a cursory intamacy with either of my siblings. We've since been extremely close and cannot remember a time when we weren't. It took an adverse event, but it taught the three of us, albeit late, both the meaning and purpose of family. –M. F.”
”Having to quit my first job...
I never thought about what I wanted or should want out of life during my late teens and early twenties... I just kind of went with the tide. I was hired immediately out of college - great job with great pay, great benefits, great future - I hated it. So, I had to think for the first time. I decided to change course - go from business to teaching, which required a whole new degree. All is well now. Working with kids is what I was meant to do! -J.”
”Photography. Being able to capture the moment in time in a still frame and sharing it with the world exactly the way you saw it. Letting people see through your eyes. –J.”
”Giving birth and raising a child has been the most rewarding, enlightening, challenging, and life/mind/body/soul - altering thing. I now know true worry, concern, selflessness, and unconditional love. Any parent would agree that there is no greater impact than your love for a child. –D. S.”
”To learn the true meaning of friendship is a bitch! That's one thing that has impacted my life forever & always! Never trust the first person who pretends to care, never give a shoulder to cry, cuz where are they now? Their shoulder's not there when your lifes in despair. Love yourself first and maybe if someone's worthy enough love them with caution. –An Angry Bitch”
”My ex-fiance deciding he was gay. –L. C.”
”Realizing that the answer to all of Life's unanswered questions about male behavior lies in the book, "He's not that into you", if you're female that is.
-L., J., and J.”
”I cannot isolate one experience or person or thing. –(unsigned)
"Pussy (underlined four times), Good or bad that's one thing that has had a major impact on my life. I guess mostly like an addict to crack. Good boys can't get those pleasures togethor. Wanting it, craving more than I want . Not leading to long term happiness. Turning women into objects, but only when I've been wanting. There is that beauty too, that it distracts me from... having a beautiful moment and then once my mind hits upon it, it sticks and is stuck like glue. Some people can handle their pussy, and some can't, or at least can't go without. Yes there is also the level it allows you to get to, the openness, the comfortability. Then again there is also what it is misused and abused for; stress, emotion, to be needed, anger, lack of love, dominance, domination, ego. Would I live without it? Would I have us live without it? No! Only if it was replaced with another way to get to the intimate level. Once the good boy, then a guy let loose, now just a person... -G.
"The night I discovered I could eat pussy... and like it! A male friend and I used to go to strip clubs togethor. I discovered I could get a great two for one deal by sharing lap dances with him because strippers and bouncers assumed we were a couple. Well one night when we went to one of those fine establishments (fine in a mid-priced, full nudity including slower show kind of way), we requested a lap dance from a hot stipper in a catholic school get up named Misty. We waited anxiously togethor in the booth and finally after a long 30 seconds, Misty came over. Now, the lap dances at this establishment weren't actually lap dances. They were actually sit-in-a-booth-while-I-stand-over-you-&-grace-your-face-with-my-pussy-and-ass dances. So, Misty did just this... and fully nude. Well, all I remember after that is not seeing or noticing anything but her wet, sweet-smelling pussy about 6" from my face. After it was over and I was nice and wet myself, and after taking a picture with Misty and my friend like a cheshire cat as if he had never been so happy in his life, I talked to my friend about my realization that OH MY GOD, I THINK I CAN ACTUALLY EAT PUSSY... AND LIKE IT. He in turn, observed that he could tell because the look in my eyes was all too familiar to him when Misty was dancing... And he had plenty of time to observe me because as usual, I got more attention from the stripper then he did ( he was starting to get a bit tired of the two for one deal that I loved for obvious reasons). So, after that, I of course, had to go on a determined search for pussy I could eat. This worked well for me, and pussy very quickly became my meal of choice. That was until six years later when I discovered the power of the penis in a way I never expected. But then... what's a girl to do without choices. –T”
”As I sit here with my family celebrating my 22 year old son's 1st job acceptance after 4 and a half years of college, I realize that my deciding to have a baby at the age of 18 has had the biggest impact on my 41 year old life. This night solidifies that the choice I made at the age of 18 to have a child that was not planned was the best choice I ever made. Now I will let him venture into the world, make his own choices, and hope that I have made enough of an impact on his life that he will be happy with the choices he will make in the future! -D.”
”My father and I haven't always seen eye to eye over the years, but I've always respected him. One evening my wife and I took him out to a bar to celebrate his birthday. Now, my father has always been something of a wildman. His mother owned a biker bar in
The story that I did not hear until that fateful evening, was that my father was a rather jealous boyfriend. Apparently, while he and my mother were having difficulties in their relationship, my mother's local old flame from her hometown began to try to rekindle their relationship. In the midst of a drunken reminisce, my father finally confessd to gathering his group of G.I. buddies togethor and physically discouraging the former boyfriends overtures. The crowning moment was when he proudly declared that after beating the crap out of the guy, he urinated on him for good measure. I never looked at my father the same way again. -B. W.”
”It was my junior year in college, and for spring break I decided to visit my friend Sarah, who was studying abroad in
”When I figured out that there was no Heaven or Hell. Being raised a catholic, that's what you're taught to believe. But, there is no scientific proof that there could be. How can you have complete happiness without pain and suffering? I know religion is a constant throughout the human population, but it is there to help us believe in something... My anthropology class in college opened my eyes. Learning about all the still existent hunter gatherer tribes and their "religions", taught me that it's easier to "go along with your crowd and "believe'", but there is nothing wrong with finding yourself, in yourself, by yourself and accepting. It's been a long journey, full of skeptics, believers, critics and bigots, but I'm happy with my own religion. I borrowed it: do unto others as you would have done to you... I smile, say "hi" to strangers, open doors to men and women and eventually, still happy, will die, be buried and my nutrients will be used by the ground and a tulip will grow with part of me. -S.”
”Vodka is my love, but whiskey is my passion. I wrote this because my cousin D. S. says whenever he thinks of me, he thinks of this quote, and laughs really hard. And that inspires me to drink more, and enjoy myself. So, everyone else should too! (she drew a little smiley face, and mug of beer...) -L. H.
”I would have to say the major thing that has had the most impact in my life would have to be cancer. It has changed my life in many ways. I have had so many people in my life with this awful disease. It has made my life very different. It has opened my eyes to good and bad. Don't take anything or
anyone in this short life for granted. You never know when you will lose them.
-K.”
”It begins as any story does, in the rainy
”As I looked upon the empty glass of whiskey with the icecubes floating and clanking in the glass, I was reminded of the state of my brain... It was as if the fire of the whiskey made my head clank like the ice and I was ready for anything influenced by fire and ice. Ice as cold as an arctic night with the fire burning within like 10,000 drunken scottsmen going to battle to fight for thier lives with a brave heart inspired by the fire within and the whiskey running through their veins. An ancient spirit of rigorous seething impending revolution took a hold in my soul, like so many times before, looking for the score or the fight as I passed another night, getting nearer to the light, or further away as I sway, or try to stay afloat, and gloat like a stubborn goat that fell into a moat, of the castle like an uncompromising vassal, with a thrust from the guts making me free and able to see that all bliss is temporary, though some can stand like a tree that is some day cut in a rut to rot, man I got ape kick down if you score some dough. –S.”
”The moment i realized richard brautigan was dead. I fell in love with his writing after the first sentence i ever read by him, and then i remembered that he took his own life in '82, when i was 4 years old. So, twenty or so years later, i pick up his book of poems "the pill vs. springhill mine disaster", and i read a poem comparing a broken heart to an aluminum lid stapled to a turd. brilliant. how could i have been fussing over my little ponies in 1982, when this full-grown man whom i've grown to adore was wrapping a noose around his neck? so it wasn't the death of a stranger that impacted me so much, but the realization that time will never allow me to love all the people who've come through this world that are still, somehow, connected to my heart. –j. g.”
”The art of life
is mingling
of letting go
and holding on” -L. A. M.”
”The thing in my life that inspired me is the fall of the berlin wall, my family was crushed by it. God rest their soul and I know there soul is in heaven with the family of rackoons in my backyard. After they ate their souls they turned into Eagles fans for life, I love David Akers. –(unsigned)
”When I was eleven years old I loved the Who, my Dad got me into rock-n-roll at a young age. I soon became the hugest Who fan in
”I.M.P.L.A.N.T.S....who would have thought two big bags of saline could give me so much smile...good vs. evil. –C.M.K”
”The biggest impact anything had on my life was when I realized that I was the only person I know who eats spiders. Since I was 4 years old I believed, and I don't know where this came from, that if I was in a moment of distress or wishful thinking and a spider came across my path, I had the urge to kill it, wrap it up in paper, make a wish and swallow it, believing that in doing so, my wish would come true. This is what fascinates me about religion. Where the fuck did I come up with this ritual? It's inherently beautiful. It's cosmic. It makes me - me. I don't normally tell this secret, and all my wishes have come true. –J. B.”
”2-15-05. Tonight was one of those nights when something memorable happened (actually, I have quite a few of these moments, but this is the most recent). My friends and I are on a committee at our children's elementary school talent show. this bitchy mom decides to critique one of our speakers who mispronounced her child's name. she said, "our name is pronounced Brig-NO-la not Brigno-LIA", so I said "Oh, ok, Areola!!" I guess she was pissed, but we didn't care. We ended up making a song "my name's not Brignola, it's Areola, kiss my asshole-a..." P.S. We did jam to this later at Kildaires. -H.
"The End. The end is so final, when you finally convince yourself it is finally over. The dull pain that has been living inside of you smashes into you like an old delapidated building. you find yourself walking through the rubble, but this time, there is no room for repair. The next building will not have the same shape. The new building willl not have the same structure. I stand at your grave and dig my nails into the freshly thrown dirt. You cannot resurrect the dead. Everything with you was fleeting. –B. M.”
”Meeting my husband had a huge impact on my life. I know this sounds like "oh just another girl who had a man tell her what to do", but this is really not the case! When I first met him I was a bit down on life in general,. I had just dropped out of college and had a crap job. I really had no idea what I wanted to do with my life. All through this, all he did was tell me that I was a special person with many talents. After a while I started to take to heart what he has told me all along. I enrolled at Villanova University
”When I was seven or eight or so, I believed in God without question. Sometime between then and Eighth grade I became aware of certain inconsistencies in the Christian religion. I figured that before our enlightened information age, certain magnaminous events that could otherwise not be explained went down in the history books or oral tradition rather, as a miracle or act of God... Gods will. Everyone has heard stories when they're young about raindrops being the angel's tears or thunder having to do with God bowling in heaven. These inconsistencies had culminated in a apathetic form of atheism.
In eight grade I had gotten my third pair of glasses in a year and a half. Needless to say, my parents were quiete pissed about me losing or breaking my previous pairs of spectacles. So, one day I realized that my glasses have become either lost or no longer wanted to be in my company. For one week I searched for my glasses at school, the bus, with friends, enemies, lost and found, my house. I even interrogated my 7 year old little brother about what could possibly have become of my glasses. Throughout this exhaustive search, I had returned home to have my parents hound me, "We haven't seen you wear your glasses all week!" On the Friday of this week after I had returned home from school, they set an ultimatum since I had been lying to them and saying I left my glasses at school. The ultimatum was that I bring them home my glasses Monday after school or I'm grounded for 3 weeks. I had already resigned myself to this grounding since I had been exploring all culpable possibilities to exactly where in the sweet Christ my glasses were. But on Sunday night I said a prayer. Not a prayer so much as a demand and not a demand so much as a bargain. I spoke aloud in my bed staring at my ceiling, "Alright God, and I don't believe there is a God, but if you can return me my glasses within 24 hours I will believe in you with all my heart for the rest of my life. and only, only if they are in perfect condition and can be shown to my parents to stop this grounding. If you can do that, and I don't believe that you can, I will believe."
The next day at my Junior High School I felt that to finally prove to myself that God doesn't exist that I should seardh even harder than I previously had. I talked to every teacher, secreetary, friend and enemy. I heard that one of my eneimies had been seen with my glasses case. I confronted him and could not get a confession, but was stilll pretty sure that he had taken them. School had ended and I waited for my bus to take me directly to grounding. I cursed the universe for it's lack of a God. I cursed the people in the world who were naive enough to beleive in God. I cursed mysefl for being so foolishly optimistic on the off chance that a benevolent omnipotent creature would ever exist. As I got on my bus to go home, my bus driver said as I was taking my seat, "are these anyones glasses?" Fuck. I walked up the aisle and sure enough they were mine, but fuck! Now I can rationalize and say that the bus driver had been on vacation for a week and that's why I couldn't have found my glasses before she returned, but I made a bet and lost. I'm stilll pissed that I have to believe in God and constantly doubt my faith, but if there is a God, I believe there is, and sincerely doubt he has much tolerance for welchers. I didn't get grounded and I never wore glasses again. The point to this story is don't try to make deals with God, because that motherfucker is crafty and he will show you up. –A.P.”
”It's almost impossible to pick one thing between losing 3 best friends in a car accident, a mother getting breast cancer and my feelings of hopelessness that I couldn't make it all better as she has all my life, and having to leave college. But, in the end, it showed me that shit happens and you gotta get over it and not give up. Life is what you make it, whether dealing with the good or bad. To sum it up...Keep on keeping on. –J.”
”What has had a major impact on me? This question makes me look back into my brain, sifting through stories of fat girls, bad head, and worse...booze. My mental voyage comes to an end at The Firehouse, a bar in
At the end of the day I believe that I have learned that at the Firehouse you can always get drunk for cheap at 7:30 am with mixed company even if you're 15. Also, getting your ass kicked, eating poo, and pissing off your girlfriend, while awesome, are not very good ideas!!! -C.”
”The skinny pig gets fed...the fat pig gets slaughtered. This applies to all facets of life...not just related to money...Think about it! -D. BY '05”
”As a younger man I lived my life with little thought to my mortality or frailty, though at the age of 22 I had riden and raced motorcycles for many years. I had excaped in joy many a time... July 5th 2003, I crashed while practicing at a Mosport,
-E. Y. 2-8-05”
”A cafe I often visited was knocked down and paved into a parking lot the summer before I moved to college. The reality that the cafe is now a parking lot for a college cracks my heart every time I drive down
”Music. I was surrounded by it growing up, but only on records. No one in my family played an instrument, except my Grandfather, who played piano and guitar, but as a kid growing up in the early nineties, I could not relate to Frank Sinatra and Chet Atkins, only later in my life could I understand and appreciate what they were atttempting to convey to their respective audiences. My parents listened to the Steve Miller Band, Billy Joel, Elton John and many other good classic rock artists! However, as a kid, I thought that's what music was. I thought it sounded nice, but again, I had trouble relating to it. It was not until I heard the opening riff to "Smells like Teen Spirit" by Nirvana during the summer of 1992 on my friends front porch that I felt a true connection between music and my personality. It was agnst driven, sarcastic, aggresseive, and a multitude of other emotions that a typical middle school studen searching for an identity could relate to. I didn't need to talk or pretentd to act like someone else in my grade who had more friends than me. I just had to listen , imagine, and get lost in my own little world. –K. S.”
”Family. I think the biggest influence was family. Growing up with Father the dylan Fam, Mother classic rocker, brother, a Hendrix Zepplin afficianado, sisters both play with instruments. Family, we're thrown into circumstances beyond control. We don't choose our family and we deal with what we have. I had a fortunate variety of influences with the context of family. –(unsigned)
”Going to art school changed my whole perspective on life. I had no friends, felt alone, and that there wasn't anyone else that thought or felt like me. Going to school I made many new friends with open minds and there I found acceptance. I (heart) art school. –L.”
”There are many things that have contributed to the way my life has been impactd, thus far. But, if I were to pick one specific thing, I would have to say it would have to be fate. Simply believing that things will work out has kept me going in my life. Basically, it all started after a tragic sporting accident leaving me with a lost scholarship, a broken dream of playing in college and a life lesson that forced me to find other talents I had aside from athletics. I believe it was fate that helped me discover those hidden talents I was capable to do. Then there was music and dancing that began to lead me thru different paths filled with better friends, the ones I thought could never replace the old ones that I had. Yet, once again, fate seemed to be on my side. In my college years, I kept a far distance from my family who was only a mere hour drive away. Slowly, I pulled myself so far away that I often felt I had no family, never celebrated holidays, instead I chose to work to avoid the drama of our dysfunction. However, the time came in my life where I needed help and had no one to turn to . I left no track s for anyone to find me, began to feel alone and fatigued and ironically the only thing I had left was my family. My apartment was gone, my cd's, my clothes, my friends...all gone, but my family stuck by my side and once again I felt that fate was there and brought my family back when I needed them most. From there I was able to rebuilt myself into the person I wanted to become, and I was able to open up and let new things into my life with a welcoming embrace- such as music, and relations with others; gaining trust and fate in each of them with hopes that in my tomorrows, they too will still be there when I may need their strength and energy to keep my fate positive that things will always continue to work out for the best. Thank you far all the experiences, both good and bad. With Fate, - S. H.”
”The Biggest thing that influenced my life was the great relationship I had with my Grandfather. He was my Father in my eyes. Later in life he was diagnosed with Cancer. I sat with him through all of it. Through it all I learned a lot. Once he passed, I decided I needed to make a difference in someones life, as he did mine. Now I have decided I will either work with kids with cancer or at the (?) Center . He has made a huge impact on my life and I'll always remember him. -N.”
”The Death of 2 of my uncles in less than a year has left me in a dazed state where I'm questioning what I've always believed life to be. They were brothers and were 2 very strong roots in my family tree. For as long as I can remember they were the 2 people I've strived to be like...patient, calm, gererous, and happy. Always with a kind word... Now I've learned we don't have forever and anything can happen... Maybe the most important thing I've learned is to live a catious but full of life. –D. C.”
”It is the friends you make and break that impact your life. They will influenc you the most and forever change your outlook on life. It can be family, school friends, faterenity brothers, or co-workers. They will be responsible for the smiles and cries of your life. I can't think of one occrurence in my life where some kind of change without my friends being directly involved. For that, I am forever grateful, because I am glad with who I am today. –J. B. 2/13/05”
"Skate & Create" is a quote from 'Jonny Rad' - A fictional/actual lounge singer of Powell Perulta skateboard video fame. I started skateboarding in the summer of 1985 and it changed my life forever. Seeing something that was not only a form of escapism, but also an outlet for frustration, a way to rebel against my tradisional-baptist-southern-black upbringing, and a way to have fucking shit loads of fun, was what my 10 year old mind wrapped around like a vicegrip clamp! The determination, will-power and tuffness that it took to stick with it never actually crossed my thoughts...now being 29 years old I feel like without skateboarding I wouldn't be alive. Now I see the originality, physical coordination, consintration and all around balls that this life I chose has made me a better person than I ever thought I could be. Post Script: 20 years of skateboarding has saved & ruined my life. Post, Post Script: Yes I realize how trite this is but you can just eat a bag of balls and read the next page! -J. L.”
”After being a vegetarian for a couple of years, I returned to the darkside one day completely without premeditation. Much like Jules from
”Dearest Memoirs, Did you ever have one of those moments when you loved life? Living in
”Something that influenced me in my life?
80s cock rock of course!
I remember my older sister would let me stay up late at night to watch Headbangers Ball on MTV if I did all her chores. It was worth it though between Motley Crue "Shout at the Devil", and considering my first really incredible sex dream, that i remember till this day mind you, was about Sebastian Bach from Skid Row. 18 and life always will have a special place in my heart. Cock Rock Rules! -Melissa Kratz”
”One day, I came to the realization that everything I love will either leave me or die. I was sitting in the forest, surrounded by stale autumn leaves and static air, watching ants slowly dissect a bluejay. It was a gorgeous bird, full of life and expectations - living during a time when the colors of life stood out to me, and all of Earth's creatures seemed mysterious and beautiful. As I stood there in my mittens and fall jacket, watching the stream of ants filter in through the birds hollow eye, I became aware of my own mortality, dreadfully aware that one day I too would lie there fading and shattered - an ephemeral maudlin spectacle, neither worthy of words nor an audience. -T. Ciboch”
”If I was gonna give one thing that has had a major impact on my life, it would be whiskey. Good ol,
An idea is the start. Dedication and determination will make it to the end. Procrastination is the downfall.
-E. N. 2004
We have all came to see,
to bad we all ended up dieing!
live in hand
-M. S.
The world is a good place
and worth fighting for
I agree with the second part (unsigned)
What we do today is set in stone. (unsigned)
Past memories of this place
make me want to come back
the expression on my face
makes you start to pace
as I look in your eyes
I wonder if I'm good enough
because as hard as one tries
I feel less than sure
I talk and sing to let out the pain
as if thats what is good for me
our relation she looks as bleek as a runaway train
you love you but you change your feelings
leaving me confused
leaving me completely reeling
my truth you have refused
I love you more than I can say
it's impolite to make you understand
our love comes into play
your love makes me want to find hidden land
but you make me feel so fucking special
I won't let you
I trust you
to move me feel safe
I'm impressionable
what I feel is true (unsigned)
Body huddled in wind
nose red, feet shuffle on leaves
cold fierce but real -E.
first cold day. what am I doing here. steaming tea and sitting beside a door that leaks cold and wind and threat of winter. this is not a bar but a coffee shop- i am not awake nor asleep but somewhere in between. that is how winter seeps into my bones, like tea leaves to steam, a slow and dark unfurl. How to write in this book that has a soul-a loud cantankerous, riotous soul-of smoking bars and dizzy drunkeness and mindless scribble amidst cover band music and pick up lines. i am writing in someone else's book these borrowed thoughts on a november day-neglecting tea and phone calls and mounds of paperwork. perhaps it's to make a mark-an indeleble mark- if not on the world but on a commune of souls, a wall of graffiti, name on a bathroom door, song on the radio, whisper in the wind. if not tomorrow, then tonight, if not moments from now then right now, this hot and cold moment my tea still waiting. –E.
Dress to impress,
it's the ultimate success to getting sex!
p.s. it's 10x funnier when your naked
-L.
Goals are dreams with deadlines. Good luck!
-G. 2004
It's so good once it touches your lips
-Old School
-M. T.
If you didn't do it already you probably won't (unsigned)
Can I get a liter a cola? (unsigned)
I've had it with this dump...we got no jobs, we got no food, our pets heads are falling off... (unsigned, but I think this is from Dumb and Dumber...)
"Sam"
left for the door, she was dragging her heels
she was gone for the night, gone for the kill
sits on the curb and she lights one up.
Staring at the back of a red Ford truck...
wish someone was driving cause she'd jump
right in, say "how ya doing, my name is Sam,
I'm looking for some stories to tell my friends when I'm older...
Hello, I am in need of a dire friend
a cure for this common enemy
to sew up this gaping hole in me
the city never liked her, but the BAR sure did...
She never took well to the streets as a kid...
Dreamt of growing up in the hills of
Now her hills are potholes where the dreams fell in,
and street lights are stars for the businessmen...
bus-pass and a wallet,
she heads downtown to the center of the beast thats been dragging her down
-C. F.
It's an experience watching people from all walks of life in one room sharing one common bond- music and cheer.
-A. B.
Better living through chemistry
If one is the other, and the other is the first then the rest is meaningless...discuss.
-J.D.
I had sex three weeks ago. That's all I can think about.
-Soupy
My mom bought a digital camera and all I can think about is taking nude pictures of myself.
-Soupy
Oatmeal creme pies are the food of the Gods
Where in the world is Carmen Sandiego and why are we looking for her?
"First Kiss Junkies"
Lovers are adicts
pretending to be romantics
searchers of euphoria
junkies of first kisses
-E. K.
Only the gentle are ever really strong
-James Dean
-K. K.
What once was a pat on the back
is now just a crack of the whip
what was once a coming of age
is just a puzzle peice that doesn't fit
-J. B.
I live for my dream and a pocket full of gold (Zeppelin)
-G. M.
A chandelier reflects on the glass table
under which my beer grows warm
we sit and talk and laugh
of days gone by, days to come
in time they become a blur
but we don't care.
each night we erase the pain
of a day past
and find a way to celebrate.
because life is nothing
if you can't find the good
in a world that seems so bad.
we have faith in passing moments
sure of something better to come.
-K. G”
Prohibition goes beyond the bounds of reason in that it attempts to control a man's appetite by legislation
-Abe
(nobody signed this entry...)
Without the art of forgetting, life would be colorless!!
-C.
Pshycos don't explode when sunlight hits them!
-No Cash Mike
Ever get the feeling you've been cheated
-Johny Rotten
When all the years combine they melt into a dream!
-MGH 11-5-04
Dolphins are the way of the world!!
-Heather '04
All knowledge seeming innocent & pure becomes a deadly weapon in the hands of avarice & greed
-R.
Just remember, you cannot spit far in the shower
-Izzi '04
The only way to truly be clean is to first bath in mud
-D.
A man who says he can and a man who says he can't are both right
-Henry Ford (unsigned)
If your 20 and you don't vote liberal you have no heart, if you're 40 and you don't vote conservative you have no brain
-Winston Churchill (unsigned)
The mark of an immature man is that he wants to die nobly for his cause, where as the mark of a mature man is he wants to live humbly for one
-Catcher in the Rye
It is what it is
the lakota way is spirtual and true
-K. N.
I propose that despite changes in both characters and writers on The Simpsons, it is still better than most of the tripe on television. I look forward to Season 16! (unsigned)
Top 5 Velvet Underground songs:
1) I heard her call my name
2) Sunday morning
3) Femme Fatale
4) Lady Godiva's Operation
5) Black angel's death song
(unsigned, but obviously someone with good taste...)
(I got this next quote in Philadelphia at the Pontiac Grill. I was in the city to see a cool band called Hot Water Music...it was an awesome night, and this is a great quote!)
The dogs all held a meeting
they came from near and far
some came by greyhound bus
others came by car
as they went in to the hall each one took a look
each one took his rear end off and hung it on a hook
and there they all assembled every mother son and sire
until some dirty doberman began to holler "fire!"
and all the dogs ran out the hall and had no time to look
each at rondom grabbed an end right off that end filled nook
that is why when two dogs see each other on the street
each dog will stop and swap a smell with every dog he meets
and that is why a dog will sometimes leave a big fat bone
to stop to smell a rear end in hopes he'll find his own
-Redd Fox (this was unsigned)
Reality is whatever still exists after you stop believing in it. (unsigned)
Play with fire and you could get burned unless you play it safe because only you can prevent forest fires and stop, drop, and roll. (unsigned)
Do what you like, cause I'll never ask why I value my own life
-Leatherface (unsigned)
I want a girl, who will laugh for no one else,
when I'm away she puts her make-up on the shelf.
when I'm away she never leaves the house, I want a girl who laughs for no one else! (unsigned)
What're we doing...It...all over again!
I want a virgin whose a whore. I want to live in tomorrow's shadows sippin on gin and koolaid. I am only a shadow who wants to sip on energy. Amen. -K.”
Shirley is a stupid whore
tell nick to wear a condom
in pain, she's crippled on the floor
blistered, a scabby wonton (unsigned)
Well behaved women rarely make history (unsigned... I've gotten this quote about 5 times so far from various people...)
No fortune is worth the loss of true love (unsigned)
For he who lives more lives than one,
more deaths than one must die
-Oscar Wilde
Rubber Monkeys (unsigned)
You lost today kid, but that doesn't mean you have to like it (unsigned, but I think it's from the movie Goonies)
When you look at me, what do U see. Can U
hear me, can U feel my pain. Do U think I'm
crazy, do U think I'm insane. Jost hold me close
and tell me I'll be ok.
-J. L.
Here's to four more
four more years
for more with the good guys
for more families without the
tears, of two
towers fallen, country full of fear
bring the fight to them, and keep
it the f&%k out of here
fuck Bin Laden
cheers,
written by the B. M. F.
I dream of you all night
and
think of you all day
it
seems it would not matter
if
everything that mattered went away
as long as I had you to hold me
when its cold outside
Do you know what it must feel like
to be in this world
you tell me you love me but act like you
hate me. But I'm just a girl
I am just a little girl
trapped inside this superficial world
the world is gray, but it's ok
as long as I have you to hold me when it's cold outside
-S. C.
Never walk blindly into a waitress, even if shes cute-you may
end up wearing a tray full of drinks...
-S.
Carving your own path is never easy
no one up ahead to be your guide
searching for a rhyme or just a reason
swallowing the emptyness inside
if you want me to...I will stand by you (unsigned)
Be humble, for you are made of earth-
be noble, for you are made of stars...
-serbien Proverb
10/2?/04
Friday night 8:00, my boyfriend and I decided to try Spence Cafe for dinner...heard it was great, but never stepped in...tonight was the night. We walked into town passing Iron Hill, Kildares'...the usual stomping grounds. Looked at the menu posted inside the window..."Lobster 4 way" perfect - lets go in!! Much to our suprise... the waiter says we just took that off the menu but forgot to remove it from the window..., after drinks - just drinks we left! Leaving, we noticed "Hoeggarden" on special from 9-11 - guess who is coming back at 9:00 - we are... much to our surprise... we made a mistake, the special doesn't start until 10:00 - you are fucking kidding me - two errors in one night... ferr shizzle my nizzle! -(unsigned)
There once was a lepaurchaun who lived on Mt. Grass
Who's balls were made of fine brass
and in stormy weather
theyd clang hard together
and sparks would fly out his ass.
-T.
No man can eat 50 eggs in one hour
-B.
I'd rather drink turpintine than piss on a brush fire.
-B.
What's the difference between roast beef and pea soup?
-anyone can roast beef.
-K.
It was The Pig Fair last September
A day I well remember
I was walking up and down with drunken pride
as my knees began to flutter and I sank down in the gutter
A pig came up and lay down by my side
As I lay there in the gutter
thinking thoughts I could not utter
I thought I heard a passing lady say
"you can tell the man who boozes by the company that he chooses"
and with that the pig got up a walked away.
(Sorry, the signature here is impossible to make out! The guy who wrote it said that this was a story that his Dad used to tell all the time. It's pretty funny I think!)
"Super Sexy 4 Life"
-master of sexiness
It's nice to be important, but more important to be nice
-anonymous
Happiness is often sold, though rarely bought
a life lived for money, a life lived for nought
-the Jakees
To touch the spirit is to know the soul. –(unsigned)
A local paper was having a pun contest. A man sent in ten entries hoping one would win. Sadly, no pun in ten did. (this one is unsigned...I probably read it about ten times before I understood the pun, if you don't get it, then try saying the last line out loud!)
Beauty is who I knew –(unsigned)
Vincents jazz
whiskey + cokes,
fishnets....
oh and a baby sitter!
love life!
You cannot retract stupidity
&
Communication will always be Puke
-C. V.
I wouldn't trust Steven King with my umbrella
-J. C.
"I've been married going on 9 years, but this past winter I had this insane lesbian affair with a girl from my work. She moved to
"ONE TIME I GOT TO RIDE IN A REALLY COOL CORVETTE. IT WAS REALLY COOL. IT WAS A CONVERTABLE. THAT WAS COOL. IT WAS RED. MY FREND JEFF WAS DRIVING. I ASKED IF I COULD DRIVE AND HE SAID NO. I ASKED WHY NOT AND HE SAID 'CUZ I WAS MENTALLY RETARDED. OH YEAH, I SAID, I FORGOT. THEN WE PULLED UP TO A RED LIGHT. THERE WAS THESE GIRLS THAT WERE LOOKING AT US AND THEY WERE SMILING. I LOOKED AT HER AND SHE LOOKED AT ME. I SAID HEY LADIES WHAT'S UP? THATS WHEN ONE OF THE GIRLS, SHE WAS REAL PRETTY, SHE SMILED AND SAID HEY YOU HAVE A LITTLE BIT OF FOOD IN YOUR HAIR. THEN THEY DROVE OFF. THAT HAD IMPACTED MY LIFE 'CUZ IT WAS THEN THAT I REALIZED I WAS RETARDED." –B.
"How can you not have an ending? A definitive ending? "How did she die? I dunno, she's not around anymore so she must have died, I dunno." What the fuck is that?!! I suppose open-ended questions allow us to believe our opinions are worth a damn. Even if we're not the sharpest tool in the shed, we search the most profound and strange sections of our minds for the most profound & strange anwer we can find. No one can tell us it's wrong.... or right. Most times listeners will nod their head slightly forward and say "uh-huh". The first time I was asked an open-ended question I was so excited I almost shit my pants. It was my time to shine and no one could take that away unless you were some ruthless cold hearted prick which it is sometimes fun to be but if I'm the victim - fuck you, I'm trying my best here. I was amazed at the fact that there was no definitive answers. No absolutes. Only Sith deals in absolutes. If that is true, they maybe the most passionate and romantic people on earth. "I'm absolutely in love with you." "I'm absolutley feeling a sting in my stomach." "That's absolute emotion - the most absolute emotion man can absolutely feel." "I've absolutely overdone this - that's the only absolute!" One thing is for sure, with out an ending, anything is possible. I've always imagined going out at the height and the prime of my life like Seinfeld and not haveing any thing negative to look down upon or back at with exception to the few awkward adolescent years and early twenties when I was sorting out my priorities. So you ask me what has inspired me or made a difference in my life 0 one example for me would be the first time I was asked an open-ended question. I could go on but I think I over shot my target here. I'll just say that I feel nothing but gratitude for these few moments when I have given an answer and no one can question it and must accept it only if it is for those few pathetic moments. I live for those moments. But then I come back to reality." -R.T.
"Sometimes I find staring at people who are staring gives you an adreline rush. the predeter becomes the prey w/o ever knowing it. A person can sit and laugh at the faces and actions and general body language of another while producing a comical show for another through their reactions. The play goes around and around." -J. R.
"I feel bad for the ink on these pages."
"Things that impact your life very often are different from person to person but one thing that remains the same is you always think you're the only one. But what you need to remember is smiling is free and it won't mess up your hair."
"I remember when i was about 6 or 7 and i was walking around a video rental store and i was looking at all these video cases. On the back there would be pictures of half-naked girls, and i remember thinking about these girls... imagining myself doing dirty stuff with them. Then, a couple of years later, we found a dirty porn mag out in the woods behind my house and those pictures really shocked me. But in a cool way. I was obsessed with sex from that point on."
"Walking home from my last day of class in 6th grade - I turned on M-TV and saw the video of Paradise City by Guns + Roses - I had always loved music but that video made up my mind on my dream of life - I've been chasing it ever since - "Dutch" from THE VACATION.
"The one thing that had a major impact on my life was my trip to
-A. "P.S. May the force by with you"
"My most memorable moment in a bar came this weekend. I'm traveling with my best friend of 41 years and we came to PA. As a loose, roadtrip weekend for a couple of 60 something musicians. I haven't felt this loose + free since I was traveling during the 60's as a drummer with a number of rock + roll + rhythym + blues bands. It's been said that you can't go home but tomorrow at 11 am, we're going to head back to conneticut with a weekend full of memories and a new inspiration for going back to the music that I have always known + loved with my brother Danny Lee" -M. H. G.
"I work out of state a lot use to party AKA cocaine I recently met my love of my life 2 yrs ago who got me out of the scene anyway recently I was in Ohio for work and decided to party like a rockstar well one thing led to another had a great time met up with a friend I had not seen in 10 years got some blow hooked up with a 19 year old stripper the night was going great till I got pulled over got a DUI and charged with possesion did my 1st 3 days in jail ever in a another state no the less it was the worst 3 days of my llife not only that I had to tell my wife to be I was busted with coke it was a real wake up call I have been lucky since I had no previous record I am going to out patient counseling and N/A. This will and has changed my life and the way I look at things be smart work hard and love your freedom. 6/24/05" –T.
"Driving home form the Shore... life is new and exciting. You are a young coping teacher, and the woman driving me home tells me that becoming a teacher is the best thing I ever decided to do. She told me that being a "safe haven" for children is inspiring to her. She told me that no matter what your own troubles are... to have children in your classroom who need a mentor, who need a place where they can feel safe is more important. Children of all ages deal with life as it comes. They don't know why things happen to them and they always know that they simply must go to school and go on with their lives. To have a teacher whom provides a safe haven for them to come and feel relieved from the stresses of life, whether it be abuse physically, sexually (?) soon... to have some adult who shows that they don't judge, that they are only there to support decisions and all things that happen is inspirational. To have a teacher who doesn't judge... who only is there for unbiased support is something all children need to feel like they have. I am so happy I met this woman, bc I will be an amzing, inspiring teacher because of her. I will be that "safehaven" for children to come to when all else feels lost. I wish you luck with your publishing goals. –K."
"Lori and Reba have lived 48 years connected at the head. One is a Pro bowler and the other a country singer. They will forever be an inspiration to myself and my best friend. If anything - follow your dreams! XOXO –J. S. D."
"One thing that had a major impact in my life was when I found the combination of feeling and thinking with my heart, mind and soul. I found out, that a person that 's shows that he or she cares, can lead to something worth more then gold. If every body respects each other, the unity of vibes and feelings will be stronger than anything. If a stranger can walk to another stranger, and talk each other like their been friend for long time, then networking and a new freind ship will be born. The world doesn't need drama, war or anything negative. If we life in a world full of postively, then a world will be living heaven, or a rasta paradise. So, I end with a quote from me, "I live to help and listen to the rights and wrongs, and fight for want is right, and never turning back on my love ones. I here and never go away. (unsigned)"
"I'm a dreamer. I chase them. My dream, love + passion is acting, theater, art. I moved to DE a year ago chasing a dream. I'm still working on it. I'm a bartender. I think acting as something that has impacted my life because I can't stop. I've been doing it since I was little. I'm living my dream! M.A.Y -6/17/05"
"When I realized that my life would be crasy wonderful no matter what path I choose! -J.
"The one thing that impacted my life was... ok actually there are 3 things that equally impacted my life:
1. The birth of my son
2. The fist time my fiance's eyes said "I love you"
3. The death of my sister
Each of these things made me realize life is a beautiful, myserious and really fucking important thing that should never be taken lightly. Everyone's heaven + hell is relative + it all builds + feeds upon itself. Never predetermine how you'll feel about anything, just cherish it and realize that how you choose to let it affect you determines who you are. –D. 6/20"
"Moving to Italy 3 years ago had a majour impact, and I've just moved back so I'm sure the experience will continue to effect my life in the future. Living in a different culture, learning a language and meeting the people I met was an incredible experience. The best part about
"As a serious musician, I'd have to say that I was most impacted by the unfortunate death of Lane Staley. In a time when rock 'n roll was in a critical stage, one
"I went to see Crowbar and Kirk Winstein said that he couldn't shit for two days and then he got the runs at the begining of the show. It was awesome. –J.C."
"Bartending for all you fucks, Jesus! It takes more patience than I possess. So, thanks everyone you've made me a raging drunk! –C. 6/21/05
P.S. Get Stuffed"
"Michael Jackson has impacted my life in profound ways. When I was 7 my mom bought me MJ's Thriller. When I saw the Thriller video on MTV I developed a psychotic disorder. When the dead guys would rise from the dead it would send me into a seizure. I was put on some zoloft and it made me better. When MJ's "Bad" album came out I started to like the Boston Red Sox. Both of them were very disappointing. The Red Sox sucked and Michael Jackson turned out to be a child molester. I was very disappointed in both. But then things changed. The Red Sox won the world series and MJ was aquitted. But the damage was done. Due to many depressing years of playoff loss and ever changing skin color of MJ I turned into a manic depressant. Now I smoke rocks and suck cocks to make myslef feel satisfied. With the cigarette market going down, the price of rocks has remained steady therefore I still get more bang for my buck! (unsigned)"
"When he left I thought, how do I do this? How do I envision a life without you in it? Then tonight I woke up. I saw someone I've been interested in forever and he is also (after all this time) alone. Now theres hope. There are still people out there. The only thing you can garantee in life is change. So count on it. Maybe that change will bring you to a place you never knew you needed to be. (unsigned)"
"One thing I can say had a major impact on my life was having a daughter and putting her up for adoption. It was the hardest thing I had to do in my life, but also the best. She is beautiful and perfect and I know she is being well taken care of. I stay in contact with her and the adoptive parents, who I'm very close with. I wish things could have been different because I miss her everyday of my life, but she has things I could never provide. I did it because I love her so much. (unsigned)"
"When I was a child I almost never spoke to anyone. I'm not sure why. Maybe I was afraid of what people were thinking, but really I thought it wasn't worth it. Going to catholic school with a bunch of homophobic racist assholes simply did not spurn me into conversation. I read a lot of books and had imaginary conversations with fictional characters in my head. Then the impossible happened. Even though I had a scholarship to the local catholic high school I convinced my parents that 8 years of socio emotional hell was quite enough. They agreed to send me to public highschool. At first I was as quiet at my new school as I had been previously. One day however I decided enough was enough and broke the damm. I saw a girl in my gym class who was wearing chucks that were drawn all over. I liked that so I approached her and said... "The woman who lives down the street from me killed herself last night. She locked herself in the garage with the car on. When I turn 16 my dad is going to get me an old mustang." This is perhaps not the best way to start a friendship, but it worked. We became best friends through school and are stilll close. Her 3rd child is my godson. And of course as the joke goes I started talking that day and haven't stopped since. That moment made a difference to me and my life because it was that moment when I became the person I still am today. –M. S."
"I GUESS THE MOST AFFECTED MY LIFE WAS WHEN I FOUND MYSELF LYING NAKED IN BED WIHT MY BROTHER. THAT WAS ALL AND GOOD I GUESS, BUT AFTER WE FOUND SEVERAL USED CONDOMS IN BED WITH US WE FREAKED. IF THAT WAS THE WORST, I MIGHT STILL BE ABLE TO DEAL AFTER YEARS OF COUNSELING, BUT IT DOESN'T END THERE. YES. IT'S BETTER. NOW I'M LATE AND YOU GUESSED IT, PREGNANT, NEEDLESS TO SAY ABORTION WAS NECESSARY AND NOW I'M THE PERMANENT D.D.. NO ALCOHOL NOT EVER AGAIN – M.E."
"Although I cannot recall precisely when the first time I saw it was, Star Wars has irrevocably altered my life. It taught me that true happiness lies in asceticism, the removal of oneself from passion, anger, and material desires as Yoda points out, "luminous beings are we, not this crude matter." The Jedi seek not adventure, or excitement, rather, they quest for enlightenment. They seek not to control the force, but to be vessels through which the force can conduct itself. Furthermore, the archtypel villain of the saga, Darth Vader, is not an acively evil being, he is instead a moral vacuum, a hollow vessel controlled by the will of the Emperor. This is especially poignant because it shows that anyone can be seduced by evil (the Dark Side), no one is born so. Evil, then in this context, is rather banal and beaurocratic. Finally, the true brilliance of Star Wars lies in the fact that the "bad guys" follow the Dark Side of the Force, but the Jedi do not follow the "light side"; they embrace the force as a whole, both dark and light. They do not give in to their anger, they channel it in moderation, using it only for defense in the direst of circumstances. I am, most certainly, a Jedi, like my father before me. -A.W.
“Music is the eye to the soul - it bears joy, heartache, laughter and pain. There is truth in music. o those who can't speak, music is their words. To those who can't hear, rythm is their ears and to those lost so deep within themselves they seem unreachable, music is the arms and hands that touch their souls. Don't just hear music, feel music, love music. -PLG
“He is a little boy who likes little boy games like playing with toys and eating popsicles. Senior Michael likes to play on the swings with little friends. He likes Muffin tops, thats why we call him "Senior Little", we also call him "Those Michaels", which turned into "Dose", which turned into "Dose Muffin". He is a little boy named "Dose Muffin". My name is J. L.”
“...So, I have decided at the young age of twenty-four, that when I turn sixty-four I will never hold anything back. We go through life trying to be courteous and nice, but when you get old, I figure who the fuck cares! I'm going to tell my wife she is fat, if she asks. "Was the service good here at Spence?" Last time yes, but tonight the waiters sucked, where is he so I can tell him Walk into a clothing store and get asked "can I help you?" No, I'm sixty-four and I need socks, stop fucking following me around, I know what I came for. It sounds dumb, but that's the way it'll be. –S.”
“Despite years of contestation, we have finally learned the official rules to table shuffleboard. unfortunately, our former understanding of the game was highly flawed. According to the informational pamphlet, it is a game of shut-outs. Every round, either one team scores, or the other. This method of play stands in stark opposition to our previous method, which involved large point tallies for all sorts of things, including utter failure to put the shuttle in any worthwhile position. The game is better than us, we are worse than the game.”
-(unsigned)_
“40 yards to the Outhouse, by W. M. They say the grass is always greener on the other side. Well, I've been to the other side and it rained a lot. I fucking hate rain, though it did make the grass greener, but I had to go back to the other side. It didn't seem as bad after that. ...This world continues to confuse me. I don't know why we're here or how to explain most things. Religion has no meaning to me, but I do love watching TV. There are lots of great things in this world; Nature, inventions in technology, girls...but it's still strange. People expect epiphanies and miracles, but I find miracles all around, even when I'm sitting at a bar. The vodka tonic in front of me stays on the table. That's amazing, that's gravity...it's not only cool, it's he law. But anyway, I love bars. They take you away from the "real world". Alcohol, I love, eople watching, music, photo hunt, good conversation...I'm still confused, so I'm just going to ruder another drink and take a piss... –S. 1-6-05”
“I hope the person that tried to borrow two dollars for train fare doesn't do any damage to my car! We are pretty sure he is a bum who wanted money for beer. He said he needed 2 dollars for train ride to
“Don't cry for me, if I die in the sea. Being a surfer is what I was meant to be. It is the most spontanious act, or involvement in a natural medium. She is the one true mother, the giver of life. Step into her and you will be obsolved of your strife. I was born to be taken by the Sea... -by H. D. B.”
“In my thirty plus years in going to bars, nothing struck me as much as the thong underwear movement. I remember my first experience. I was in a quiet pub in Philly, minding my own business, drinking a Guinness. I had been chatting with the bartender about politics, always a bar no-no, but we went at it anyway. He was a friend of mine, a republican friend, but a friend none-the-less. He was going on about some tax cut "BS", when I turned and saw this excellent looking girl looking through the song selection on the cd juke box. She was about 5'11", long dark red hair and a face full of sexy freckles, she was bobbing her head to the song, which was playing and making her choice. Just as she went to put her money in the slot, the dollar slipped from her hand and sailed gently to the ground. She looked down at it for a second and then bent over to pick it up. I watched her look down and then she bent over, of course I was just watching to see er gorgeous ass, in those tight blue slacks she was wearing, but what I got was a glimpse of something that was to be the benchmark for all my future perverted bar oggle sessions. Her slacks slipped below her waist and up popped two thin strands of red silk that came together at a meshey heart shaped peice of fabric just above the crack of her perfect ass. It was like the world had finally been shown to me for what it truly was. She retrieved the dollar, stood up, and inserted it to play her songs. She gave her pants a slight tug on either side as she walked away to pull them up. From that day on I have been on a quest to get that same thrill everytime I go to a bar. It doesn't happen everytime, it doesn't even happen every other time, but when it does appen you better believe it's something that stays etched in my mind forever. God bless
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