"The thing that lights a fire under me to succeed in life is my father. He has struggled his whole life to give my brother & I what we need - but he was never really able to give us everything. At 22 I just graduated from University of Delaware & am on my way to Brooklyn Law school - so that I can give my dad everything he ever needs. He suffered from triple bypass surgery last summer. Stressed out from money things. Mostly money. I want him to spend the rest of his life on a boat. On whatever lake he chooses doing what he loves -fishing.
-A. C."

"About three weeks ago, I got so drunk that I fell in my driveway & knocked out my front tooth! But before that unfortunate dental disaster, it had been a great night. I had been drinking w/my friend Michael, speeding down 202 at speeds we shouldn't have been, his car a red slash against the night sky. It was raining and gray but we only hit green lights. green smears on the asphalt. We drank ridiculously that night. telepathicly. shot in my hand before I even ordered one. I was wearing my pink tank top and the sequins were falling off. but we sparkled that night on our own. Vodka shots - clear, crystalline, pure. We danced and lived our motto, "It's our time -we're young." It's those moments I always find myself chasing -those carefree, youthful, blood pumping in the veins moments. And the next thing I remember is asphalt, blood threading red over my palm. even as I insisted I was fine. And I am fine. even though I'm 23, still living at home, unsure of where I'm going, living for the feeling of Red Bull and Vodka -alcoholic lull vs caffeine, fighting it out in my veins. "I don't fear storms, because I'm learning to steer my ship" –L. A.


"an influential memory of mine of would be the time when I was five years old and my father had come in work and passed out on the couch. You see my father was a heavy alchoholic and drug abuser, well before long he started haveing ceasers in his sleep. Well I watched him have a massive seacere and he had bit his toungue off while having a ceasere. Well after he came out of his seasere he blamed me for not taking his belt off and putting in his mouth so he wouldn't bit his toung off. after taking a harsh beating right then their I decided I never wanted to be like my father. I wanted to be the best father I could if I ever was to be. -I. K."

"I'M WORKING ON A NEW MOVIE. ITS A GLADIATOR, MANS BEST FRIEND THING CALLED AIR CALLIGULA, IT'S LIKE AIRBUD, BUT THE DOG THROWS A JAVELIN" (unsigned)

"PLAYING MUSIC WHLE TRIPPING. HANDS DOWN, CRAZIEST THING POSSIBLY I'VE SEEN MY SOUND WAVES, I HAVE LEFT MY BODY, AND THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN ME AND THE OTHER PLAYERS AND I. DISSOLVING REALITY AND THE SEPERATION BETWEEN THE UNIVERSE AND MYSELF... IT WAS ALL ONE, IN AN ESTATIC WAVEY, HAZEY, BEAUTIFUL SONG. SO...GO OUT THERE AND TAKE SOME DRUGS (unsigned)"

"6/13/05

"I liked boys. I always have. However, the other day I had a life changing experience. It was a hot + sweaty day. I was with two friends: one a girl -name not needed, and the other a boy -name not needed, we decided we were so hot that we wanted to go swimming in the near by stream. On the river bank stood a tree, attached was a rope. Being the crazy up for anything 21 year olds we are we decide what the hell who needs bathing suits. Stripped down to the nude and jumped in. This was the moment me and my girl friend's life changed. We couldn't stay away from each other accidental (?) kept occuring. Eventually it just happened we got caught up into the hottest most passionate make out session. After a good five mins in our own world we realized our guy friend was jelous and feeling left out, so we let him in on the action. This was our life changing moment and not to mention the begining of a beautiful relationship. -K + M, Lovers for life"

"1999 - Charleston, SC
had to hitchhike to my next festival, got a ride w/an old truckdriver - the motherfuckers going 75 mph in an overloaded Mack truck (18 wheels!!!) he's so interested in what i'm saying - he asks me to grab the wheeel -so i do- then he jumps to the back-leaves me to- crash or drive the fucking thing! So i take the wheel - and ask what the fuck??? -he says - i thought you wanted to live!
-L."

"Some times I go to church drunk. I think some of the congregation members notice too. however I always go to church high. I'm pretty sure nobdy notices, and if they do, they appreciate my enthusiastic singing more than accusing me of recrational drug-use. After a very spiritual Saturday night of binge drinking, it is easier to go to church if you drink + smoke weed beforhand. Be sure to sing good! C. M. B."

"February 28, 2000

Choice changes your life. Every day I try to validate mine - but that validation will never come. I'll never know if I made the right one- But it's changed my life forever and brought me where I am. Feb 27th I had a child, the next day she was gone. And my life will never be the same. -B.D."

"Waiting for inspiration to greet me at the crossroads of my dreams and my direction, I mused for a moment on the nature of the creative faerie, fickle and transient unless bliss precedes and follows. And washing up, like so many iridescent jellyfish. My pearls of words and music converge and shine as if tomorrow no longer held meaning. I began to move forward, and the perpetual motion of Fate met me halfway... From then on, I followed my intense, instinctive happiness and have been content ever since. -Just this Girl"

"Me and my friends were out at the bars in Barcelona over spring break. Needless to say, we were all shitfaced. girl drama proceeded to unsue, full force I might add. It ended on a tragic climax back at the apartment we were renting when a glass door was slammed in my best friend, Leigh's face. The glass shatered as she fell backward, penetrating her right leg. She suffered extensive nerve damage and lost over 20% of blood. Simply put, she nearly lost her life. This tragic event which began at the bars impacted my life in ways I cannot describe. Watching you best friend bleeding to death in a foreign country really puts things into perspective. -MAF"